CHUD!! Lovecraft!! he's wuvvly AND neurotic!! I-Mockery!! B-Movies!! Berserk!! Guts is SOoO dreamy!!! *blushies* Folklore!! Engrish!! The Punisher!! *swoony swoony* Cthuuuuuugle!! *wigglies* I'm not really one for video games, but.. my God.. I like cute things!! *cheers* hilarious and saddening!! send me something!! *sad puppy face*

Saturday, March 20, 2004 01:14 p.m. the last... Well, this is the last entry for the Rabbitfodder. I hope you enjoyed it, I've moved to http://www.livejournal.com/users/immortalzodd/ Sunday, March 14, 2004 11:05 p.m. *content* tonight was very nice *smiles* that is all. Sunday, March 14, 2004 12:34 p.m. *content* this has been the best weekend in recent memory, since probably 9 weeks ago. It's so nice to see my friends, it reminds me that I'm not alone all the time. I got to see Erin on Friday and Saturday, which was really nice. She's going home today, so although Saturday was melancholy, it was still nice to see friends that have been away for so long. On Friday we ate sushi while waiting for Esther to come back, and then went to Eat-N-Park to wait for her return. Unfortunately, she arrived before we did and was sitting at the other side of the restaurant, so we didn't notice her for an hour. When she did arrive, it's really hard to describe how I felt to see her again. It was like all the worries and unhappinesses that I had aquired over the past 9 weeks just were flushed away. It was just very nice. So, we ate some fries and talked about such things as robots and Benjy, timid officer of the SS, and then we took Esther home at 1ish and I went to sleep. On Saturday, I went and helped Esther with some yardwork, which was enjoyable, and then we went and hung out with Erin some more, which was, once again, really enjoyable. We played with puzzles *couldn't figure out a single one...* and we watched some videos of Moix Dis Moi (I dreamt about them stealing our car last night.....), Nookicky (oyasumi mamosu kun! *waves*), and Du Le Quartz (the music was good, but the vocalist was boring.. except when he said "Please enjoy our show" in a heavily accented English). After hanging out at Erin's for awhile, we went to Eat N Park with Dan and Zack(or is it Zach?). Zack(h) was a really interesting character... he was quite funny *smiles*. I ate myself sick, I was uncomfortable for the rest of the night. Then we went to my house with Dan, and he went into Dan-Geek mode over my swords. It was interesting to listen to him talk in that knowledgeable way. I learned about more of his sister's dumbness(she has a high blood-to-stupid ratio....) and Esther and Dan did alot of talking about martial arts, which was neat to listen to. Erin entertained herself with some of my many action figures, and Esther commented on how everyone regressed upon entering my room. I didn't though, 'cause I had to regression to do *weep wuup* Anyway, so everyone hung out and talked about stuff on the couches, and I hugged Esther, and then it was time to go, so I hugged Erin and drove back to Esther's house with her so I could say goodbye one last time and be with Esther and Erin for a bit more. It was sad to see Erin go.. I'll miss her. So today, I get to study for a Schlactner test, and then see Esther in the evening, which will be nice. Friday, March 12, 2004 08:26 p.m. *relieved* zero days.. *gentle smile* Thursday, March 11, 2004 09:31 p.m. wee! I'm gonna 'splode with glee! ooh, a title rhyme.... Thursday, March 11, 2004 06:46 a.m. *happiness!!* ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!! *bouncebouncebouncebouncebounce!!!* Tuesday, March 9, 2004 09:20 p.m. 2 MORE DAYS!!!! *wigglies!!* Sunday, March 7, 2004 04:44 p.m. I am a Davud thiefer LAYER ONE: -- Name: Benjy Blanco -- Birthplace: Magee Woman's Hospital -- Gender: male *sadness* -- Eye Color: brown -- Hair Color: blackish brown -- Height: I think it was 5'9" -- Righty or Lefty: right handed -- Zodiac Sign: Leo LAYER TWO: -- Your heritage: Ukranian, South American(multiple countries in South America), French, Spanish -- The shoes you wore today: mah boots! -- Your fears: waaaaaay too many to list, most of which don't exist.. -- Your perfect meal: one with good company *smilies* -- Goal you'd like to achieve: I wish I knew.. LAYER THREE: -- Your thoughts first waking up: "should I see if Esther's awake, or go back to bed?" -- Your best physical feature: my hair, it's the only thing I like about myself -- Your bedtime: anywhere between 11:30 to 1, on weekdays -- Your most missed memory: my old house *cries* LAYER FOUR: -- Pepsi or Coke: I'm trying to cut the soda, don't tempt me! -- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds has better food, but Burger King so rules on fries -- Single or group dates: never been on an organized group date, so I don't know. A single date is more romantic though *smilies* -- Adidas or Nike: my tennis shoes are so decrepit, I can't tell -- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea is more subtle than Lipton, so I like it more -- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla for headaches and heartaches -- Cappuccino or coffee: coffee LAYER FIVE: -- Smoke: eew, no -- Cuss: sometimes, don't really like doing it -- Sing: alot, even though a horse could do it better than me.. -- Take a shower: yup, duh -- Have a crush: I reiterate, it's not a crush if it's wuv! -- Do you think you've been in love: mhm *smiles* I think I am -- Want to go to college: it scares me.. -- Liked high school: I hate it with a firey passion -- Want to get married: eventually -- Believe in yourself: I wish *sadness* -- Get motion sickness: only when driving with my brother or grandmother.. -- Think you're attractive: not usually, unless I'm told so *smiles* -- Think you're a health freak: a little bit -- Get along with your parent(s): very well so *smiles* -- Like thunderstorms: I love to walk in rain, so definetly! -- Play an instrument: not really, and I'm only a little interested. LAYER SIX: In the past month... -- Drank alcohol: mhm -- Smoked: nope, and never -- Done a drug: nope -- Had Sex: nope -- Made Out: nope *smilies* -- Gone on a date: nope -- Gone to the mall?: yeah, I still don't like it -- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: that gives me an idea.... -- Eaten sushi: somewhat frequently! -- Been on stage: nope -- Been dumped: nope -- Made homemade cookies: yup! they didn't come out too well, though... -- Gone skinny dipping: um, no -- Dyed your hair: not in awhile, and I don't plan on it -- Stolen anything: proud to say never! LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl.. -- Best eye color?: that's unimportant -- Best hair color?: not really important, though, I'm quite partial to darker hair -- Short or long hair?: doesn't really matter, though a completely shaved head wouldn't be terribly attractive.. generally, I like longer hair though -- Height: once again, unimportant -- Best weight: still unimportant -- Best articles of clothing: unimportant, though I like more interesting clothing, like shirts with woodcut fish or big smiley suns *smilies* LAYER TEN: -- Number of drugs taken illegally: none, though technically wine at my age is illegal.. -- Number of piercings: my body is unpunctured -- Number of tattoos: my body is uninked -- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: I think newborns are posted in the newspaper, but other than that, none probably -- Number of things in my past that I regret: every single time that I do something mean *sighs* IT'S OVER!!! *whistles* Saturday, March 6, 2004 08:48 p.m. wow Two represents interaction, two-way communication (as opposed to one-way) cooperation, and balance. You are imaginative, creative, and sweet natured. To save me from having to put each of these in a sentence each, the following describe you; peace, harmony, commitment, loyalty and fairness. But there are two sides to the coin. Twos also introduce the idea of conflict, opposing forces, and the contrasting sides of things; night and day, good and evil, so on and so forth. You can be withdrawn, moody, self-consious, and indecisive. Please rate my quiz. What does your name and arithmacy say about you? (some simple knowledge of adding is required on your part) brought to you by Quizilla I wouldn't have posted, but damn, that's eerily accurate..... Sunday, February 29, 2004 10:08 p.m. another crappy weekend when most other people enjoy themselves!? :O seriously, though, this wasn't that bad of a weekend. Today was actually very nice, until later when I was oh-so-kindly reminded of the vast social network that most people I know have *grr*. But, other than that, which made me feel pretty lonely and crappy, today was really good. For my two really good friends, thank you for being such wonderful and kind people *huggles* you both make me very happy *smilies*. the end of March to the middle of April is coming closer every day *maniacal laughter* bwahaha!! Anyway, my weekend: Friday was pretty ungood. I was lonely and alot of people I know went out to enjoy themselves. But still, it could have been worse, 'cause I hate dancing and there would have been certain parties attending the hoopalah that I would rather not see. Then, there was Saturday, which was really relaxing. It was the good kind of being alone, not when it makes me lonely, but when I feel relaxed and peaceful. I moved a bunch of boxes to the attic and got payed generously, which I spent on pre-ordering the Hellboy figures, which I'm going to have so much fun with because I'm such a nerd *smilies*. Then, there was Sunday, and I went to the old house to move stuff with my dad, and that was very nice. We moved a piano, which is UNBELIEVABLY FUGGIN' HARD TO DO. So, after my nice period of working with my dad, I came home and talked some more to my friends, which was very nice. Then I got reminded of how lonely I am, which made me depressed for an hour or so. But, I got alot of school-work done and I was comforted by one of my friends, which made me feel better. Then, I ate and here I am now, going to bed. Goodnight! Friday, February 27, 2004 09:50 p.m. I steal quizzes *HAVE YOU EVER* 1. Kissed your cousin: nope 2. Ran away: I've entertained the thought, but never 3. Pictured your crush naked: .. nope 5. Broken someone's heart: God, I hope not... 6. Been in love: yup! 7. Cried when someone died: when the creatures that I love most pass away, I'm severely depressed for days 8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: no, and if I ever did, I would get over that quickly. 9. Broken a bone: nope (10. Where is question 10?) 11. Lied: I try not to, but I have.. 12. Cried in school: never, I've been close, but I can't *WHICH IS BETTER* 13. Coke or Pepsi: Coke 14. Sprite or 7UP: 7UP 15. Girls or Guys: they're the same, it's the personalities that matter 16. Flowers or candy: agh, BOTH. I'm a sweetaholic and a nicethingsaholic. Unfortunately, both are denied.. 17. Scruff or Clean shaved: for me? clean shaved. Everywhere. But, for people like Frank Castle, exceptions must be made.. 18. Quiet or Loud: I try to be quiet 19. Blondes or Brunettes: black hair? 20. Bitchy or Slutty: neither! 21. Tall or Short: tall people look cooler and tougher, but shortness is good too *smilies* 22. Pants or Shorts: pants, my legs must be hidden *MORE MISSING QUESTIONS!* *WHAT IS (YOUR FAVORITE)* 29. Your Good Luck Charm: Gah, I have a million of them 30. Person You Hate Most: there's noone I completely hate 31. Best Thing That Has Happened: the little things are the best 32. Color: dark, dark blue or black 33. Movie: ooh, I love Spider-man, and Reanimator, and Return of the Jedi, and UHF, and Shawshank Redemption, and, and....... 34. Subject in school: Englulush 35. Juice: I like orange juice.. 36. Cars: cars scare me, though I want an electric one or a hybrid when the time comes 37. Ice Cream: Vanilla when my tummy hurts. 39. Season: any time is good 40. Breakfast Food: something quick and caffeinated 41. Song: Walking is Still Honest, Garnet, Gekka no Yasoukyoku, Music Box Dancer, Disco Before the Breakdown, Hanasaku inochi aru kagiri, Pachelbel's Canon, the William Tell Overture, Perfect Garden, Frogstar, Guts, and more that I can't think of 42. Favorite food: sweet things! *WHO* 43. Makes you laugh the most: my good friends 43. Makes you the funniest: Riyo 44. Makes you smile the most: Esther 45. Can make you feel better no matter what: my good friends 46. Has A Crush On You: noone would have a crush on me 47. Do You Have A Crush On: it's not a crush if it's wuv! 49. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: my love.. *DO YOU EVER* 50. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: I would gladly, but noone ever calls me.... 51. Save AOL conversations: no, it's always the same 52. Save Emails: no 53. Wish you were someone else: yeah, infrequently 54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: CONSTANTLY. *BEST* 55. Hairstyle: hanging down 56. Cologne: nope 57. Perfume: nope 58. Martial arts technique: kindess? *HAVE YOU* 60. Kissed the same sex? nope 61. Fallen for your best friend? um, nope. All were boys 62. Made out with JUST a friend? eew 63. Fought in a war: no, and I don't plan to unless it's TRULY for a good cause 64. Been in love?: yup 65. Been in lust?: *mumbles* 66. Used someone?: I try not to, and if I have, it was entirely unintentional.. 67. Been used: yeah.. alot... *frowns* 68. Cheated on someone?: absolutely not 69. Been cheated on?: nope 70. Been shot: with a needle or a pellet gun, yes 71. Done something you regret?: *sighs* constantly.... *THE LAST PERSON* 72. You touched?: Riyo! 73. You talked to?: my mum 74. You hugged?: Riyo 75. You instant messaged?: Esther 76. You kissed? Riyo 77. You had sex with?: virgin! wee!! 78. You yelled at?: myself.... 80. Who broke your heart?: I don't want to talk about it 81. Told you loved?: my love *smiles* 82. Heard I love you from: my love *smiles* *OTHER INFO* 82. Color your hair? black with this odd brown streak down the middle... 83. Have tattoos? nope 84. Have piercings?: I could use some.. 85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both?: only one, which pleases me *smiles* 86. Own a webcam?: nope 87. Own a thong?: eew, Benjy+thong=clinical blindness 88. Ever get off the damn computer? I should, but I don't.. 89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: aber nur ein biBchen 90. Habla espanol? nein? 91. Quack? *flies away!* *HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU* 92. Stolen anything? nope *happy* 93. Smoke? if I start to, someone shoot me? 94. Schizophrenic? a little 95. Obsessive? a little 96. Compulsive? a little 97. Obsessive compulsive? a little 98. Panic? yeah, alot... 99. Anxiety? yeah, more than panic... *frowns* 100. Depressed? manic depressive.. Thursday, February 26, 2004 11:05 p.m. relaxed.. School was terrible today, but something just happened. I talked when I got home, and I realized a few things about how I function that I would like to correct. I'm going to try to be stronger, for my loved ones. But that wasn't quite it. I went outside at 10:30, and I had a moving experience. It's sort of private, but I just feel a bit more secure and comfortable. I'm not in glee, I just sort of feel at peace for right now. Tuesday, February 24, 2004 09:11 p.m. blah I'm lonely, bitter, and otherwise ungood. There you go. Friday, February 20, 2004 06:29 p.m. grrrrrr..... just don't tell me about how much fun you're having this weekend, I'm prone to snap and murder.. Thursday, February 19, 2004 09:47 p.m. dreamies... I had a really weird dream last night. It's hard to explain visually, so bear with me. It felt like I was reading a manga.. but there weren't page separations. No, it was more like I was living in a manga... everything was black and white, and all the people had that style about them. Including myself, so I was quite the handsome *smilies*. Anyway, it was like I was at school, and everyone was there, like all the people I know, and random faces in the halls, and every one of my teachers. Doc Fro looked wonderful *grins*. It was a VERY vivid and detailed dream, which is rare; I usually don't remember my dreams so well. Anyway, most of it took place in art class, and Devd was there. Devd looked really good, albeit a bit crazy *smiles*. I was reading the latest issue of the Benevolent 5 (no idea where that came from...) and I was fawning over one of the members, Arachnido (he was like Spiderman.. but his name was Arachnido). And I was trying to draw him, but the best I could do was one of my classic chibis. Anyway, other stuff happened, which was really neat. I remember going to all of my classes, and everyone was in the manga-esque style, including all of my teachers *smiles* Doc Fro looked the best, his eyes were bulging out of his head and he had a positively mad look about him. What was unusual, though, is that in all of my school dreams, I forget assignments and make an ass out of myself. This time, though, I didn't make the ass out of myself. I got along really well with the teachers, which was nice *smiles* I was the smart kid in all of my classes, it was lovely. Oh, I forgot to talk about how I looked, which I need to, 'cause I was so damn pretty *smiles*. Basically, I looked like what I would look like if I was transferred into that sort of style, but my nose was smaller, I had these HUGE Mihoshi-esque eyes, and I was very thin *smilies!*. I was wearing the Ghost eating a cake shirt, and I had my fishnet shirt under that. Then, I had on my cargo pants, and my boots, which were highly polished *smilies* And, of course, I had a dress-shirt tied around my waist. I was very feminine, which was pleasing *smilies*. And I didn't constantly switch moods, I was always in Wubby-Dubby-Benjy-Mode (TM). Anyway, back to the story. Instead of having gym, I was in gymnastics, and I was really good at it, which will be important later. After school, I went home, and talked to Esther on-line, and we were talking about my brother. He had come home from rehab, and he seemed to be doing much better. She was coming home soon, which pleased me greatly *smiles*. And then, I got a phone-call from my dad. Apparently, he was working hard on a case that was shoved on to him, and he needed help organizing all of the information given to him, so I had to go into the office. I took the T into downtown, which was now a MASSIVE city. Pittsburgh is pretty small, but this was like, Metropolis in Superman. It was HUGE. So, I went in, and I was helping him, and he started explaining to me his case. Basically, a company that experiments with cures for all sorts of terrible diseases had not been up-to-par with safety regulations, and consequently, one of their scientists was SERIOUSLY injured. Well, not so much injured, but mutated into a horrible thing. Anyway, his family wants compensation for what the father has become, so they went to a labour attorney for help. Noone wanted to work with the monster except for my dad, so he took the job. So we worked long into the night, and the next day, my dad was ready to present the case. It was halfway into the schoolday, so rather than going to school, I decided to go and see the courtroom drama, and watch my dad working *smiles*. So we went, and my dad presented his case, with me standing in the back of the room. As the case wore on, the events were looking in favour for the drug company, until the family wanted to bring in the father to show the judge what had happened in the flesh. So, four police officers guided this HUGE chained beast into the room. I remember seeing it, and feeling two things at once. I thought it was very cute, but at the same time, fear gripped my heart, 'cause the thing was HUGE. It looked like Man-Thing, but bigger. ALOT bigger. So, the judge and jury, thorougly horrified by the remains of the family's father, leaned in favour of my father's case. After they won, though, there was alot of cheering, which frightened the monster. He lashed out, fighting back the police officer, and cornering my dad. I ran forward, and it turned around and bit my arm, lifting me up into the air and tossing me behind the jury seating dealie. I was knocked out, but I woke up later, as people were searching for me and the monster had been subdued. Anyway, I screamed out for my dad, and he was alright, which was good. What was weird, though, is that the wound on my arm had healed, leaving this green slimey puddle of Godknowswhat (TM) all over the floor. We were going to go to the hospital, but in a very Benjy-like fashion, I insisted that I was fine. So, we went home, and I promplty went to sleep from exaustion. I woke up at like, 3 in the morning, and I went to get some water for my sore throat. I was in Benjy Morning Mode (TM) so I looked really disgruntled and grimacy. I had my glass under the sink, and I went to turn the dial thingie. But, instead of my hands going toward it, a prehensile tail did. It turned the dial, and it poured my glass. I sat staring at my new tail, not really noticing the oddity. I sipped my water, and then spit it out, and stared at the tail with wide eyes. I ran upstairs, convinced that it was a dream, and went back to sleep. Low and behold, when I awoke, I still had the friggin' tail. But, it was time for school, so I packed my bookbag and ran out the door, concealing my tail underneath my shirt and backpack. All day, I wasn't really concentrating, rather, I was thinking about what I was going to do with my tail. I sort-of played with the idea of becoming a superhero, on account of my love for the Benevolent 5. Of course, I knew that I lacked the skills or the powers of my favourite heroes, so I was content with going home and sawing off my tail, convinced that it would heal over just like the bite mark. I went home, and as I got off of the bus, I saw a big black car in the driveway, and some very seedy characters were taking my brother into it. It then started to drive away, and I saw that at least one of the drivers had a map of the city with him, with an area circled with a red marker, the only colour in the entire epic dream. I was so horrified.. I started to cry in the dream. I went inside the house, still sobbing, and I called the police and told them that my brother had been kidnapped. Though, because I didn't have the license plate, they said that they couldn't do much, except look for the car-type. I then fell on my knees, and started SOBBING. It felt like it does when I sob, my eyes burnt, and I just felt like my heart was dead. I threw my backpack against the wall, and the safety-pins broke off, and everything spilled out. One of my issues of the Benevolent 5 landed on top, and I stared at it for awhile. I ran out of the house with some clothing for a disguise, and I ran to the subway. I sat in the car, looking at a map of the city, and I circled the place that the kidnappers circled on their map. I kept on waiting while the subway moved, and then my alarm clock went off, and I woke up. This was probably one of the longest dreams I've ever had that made sense. I think it's because I didn't sleep well last night, the whole thing was like an extended lucid dream. It was really surreal, but just wonderful. This and the dream when I was a girl are the best dreams that I can remember having. This was tragic, but the sheer scope of it was lovely. It took elements from an idealized life for myself, and mixed it in with the backround for my invented hero, the Law. I think that this is going to be how I think of him for now on, not some 30-year old lawyer, but an idealized me. I won't think of him as Benjy Blanco, but in essence, he's what I want to be. He'll bumble alot, seeing that he's the most inept superhero ever. But, it'll just sort of be an idealized life for me, something that I can put my dreams into with doodles. I thought of a nifty suit today, it's really bland, make-at-home stuff, but it fits me. Plus, I get to wear black dish-gloves, which is always a positive *smilies*. I know I don't have the skill to make a comic, this is more of a little thing to doodle in math class and such. Who knows, I might even make a few little strips like Lobster Johnson. *shrugs* this is just something to daydream about, more than anything else. But I love it *smilies*. I'm thinking about writing a little chibified humour comic about me and Esther, with guest visits by Dan, Erin, Dave, and the like. Meaning those other three or four people I know..... *wishes I could be more social*. But, I can't think of substance. All style, no substance..... Thursday, February 19, 2004 07:59 p.m. blughm. I'm unhappy *frowns*. Well, not right now, I feel neutral at the moment. But earlier I was unhappy.. *doesn't trust the post-office anymore* Wednesday, February 18, 2004 09:30 p.m. Do not anger the higher powers, for you are crunchy, mortal and taste good with ketchup. Add a fortune to your website or blog, click here. Wednesday, February 18, 2004 08:05 p.m. stuff... *frump frump* *being julus right now* *and bored, too* Sunday, February 15, 2004 03:18 p.m. quiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz...... the first 20 random songs that come up on my playlist: 1. Particle Man~ They Might be Giants 2. Ju Te Veux~ Malice Mizer 3. See the Constellation~ They Might be Giants 4. Goin' Down to Dunwich~ Darkest of the Hillside Thickets 5. de I'image~ Malice Mizer 6. Impact~ Against Me! 7. Tonight We Give it 35%~ Against Me! 8. Shindemo Boogie-Woogie~ Miyavi 9. ISM~ Kozi 10. Theme of Spaceship Zero~ Darkest of the Hillside Thickets 11. The Argument~ This Bike is a Pipe Bomb 12. Mask~ Dir en grey 13. New Vogue Children~ Schwarz Stein 14. Seraph~ Malice Mizer 15. Murder~ Berserk sountrack 16. The Politics of Starving~ Against Me! 17. Punypure~ Nookicky 18. Amafurase Tanmaina~ Kagrra 19. You Died at Five~ the Devil is Electric 20. Music Box Dancer~ Frank Mills Saturday, February 14, 2004 11:05 p.m. new ideas I had a better idea than the melodramatic rat brother falling out thing. It would be about a haunted house. Once a large Victorian mansion, now a run-down abandoned building. A small pack of stray cats would move in from the insecurity of the woods, and find the place quite comforting. But, in the fashion of every haunted house movie, odd events slowly force the new residents to realize that things are not what they seem. It would probably be haunted by some old witch who used to kill cats in rituals, or something. And, in the fashion of one of my favourite haunted house movies, House, it would have plenty of goopy monsters. Or, I could take it in a more serious and less goopey fashion. It could be about a stray cat who is taken into a haunted kennel, and has to deal with the ghostly apparition that paces down the hallways at night. I know these things seem cheesy with animals, but I just like animals more. They're more fun, they're cuter, and I am of the personal belief that they don't have to always be goofy. It's just like expanding your horizons. It's like Bunnicula. Those stories were great *smilies*. I'm just more enchanted with animals instead of humans, I don't get bored when I'm writing about them. It's nice to work in human characters, but mainly, I love animals *smilies*. I wish I had time this weekend to start writing a story... I have so much other crap to do, though *frowns*. I really want to just start typing, I'm in the mood for it, but I have work to do *frowns*. Hopefully on Monday I'll still be in the mood.. I just really want to create something interesting. Blah, I'll just have to wait. I need to start paying more attention to my dreams, like I used to. My nightmares could give me really good ideas for spooksters in a hopefully eventual story. Ooh, just thinking about past nightmares gives me the chills.. like the lumbering bloated corpse at the end of the hallway, and the crisp blue eyes staring out from the darkness.. *creeped out* I don't like remembering my spookiest of dreams. I'm going to have nightmares tonight.... *frowns*. *writhes* I don't wanna type my Odyssey paper and my Schlactner outline, I wanna create stories! *frownness* Saturday, February 14, 2004 07:33 p.m. random stuff! Today wasn't that bad, I visited my brother in rehab, but I had to spend the day with his girlfriend. She's nice, but she annoys me with her mannerisms. I don't dislike her, but I'm not terrifically fond of spending time with her. Regardless, it was worth it to see my brother, who's looking better than I can remember him being in the past.. year or so. I went to Slacker while in the South Side, and I got a lacey undershirt and a collar. My dad and I want to make a little tag for the collar that says, "Benjy: If lost, please call (insert my phone number here). Reward given," and one of Penny's old rabies vaccination tags *smilies*. The undershirt looks really good; I would never want to wear it without another shirt, but with one of my various shirts over or under it, it looks quite good. I watched two movies last night, House and the Princess Bride. Both are alot of fun *smilies*. House is probably the most enjoyable haunted house movie ever made, complete with goopey monsters and all. Princess Bride is just a really fun fairy tale. I want to write a short story soon. I could write about people, but I'm so partial to fairy tales. Maybe a dramatic semi-autobiographical tale about two brother rats that have a falling out.. I've never tried something really dramatic, but it might be fun. Then there's Hampstercles... oh, how that calls to me. I wish I didn't have so much work this weekend... *sadness* I want to detail the adventures of the mightiest hampster more than outline historical periods... *sadness*. I plan on blogging later tonight. Over and out *fizzle* Thursday, February 12, 2004 09:25 p.m. ramblin's! okay, so I just watched three GREAT movies, which I will probably review later, but I'm sleepy and lazy now, and I want to watch the Worst Case Scenario trailer.. repeatedly. Anyway, the movies I saw were Dead Heat, Suspiria, and Hellraiser. Dead Heat is a zombie cop movie with plenty of gore, Suspiria is one of the most visually gorgeous horror movies that I've ever seen, and Hellraiser is now one of my favourite horror movies, period. I don't want to describe Suspiria, because it's a bit of a mystery, but I'll go on at lengths about Dead Heat and Hellraiser. Believe me, Suspiria's FANTASTIC, but I really don't want to give any of the inherent awesomeness away. Dead Heat.. wow, what a FUN movie. It's so locked in that 80's cheese, and it's just wonderful. How could it be bad, it's a ZOMBIE COP MOVIE!?!?!? It's about this officer, Roger Mortis (haw haw haw, play on words) who gets killed by a zombie while doing an investigation, and is brought back to life by his bumbling macho partner. Hilarity and gore ensues. Any movie that has 3 human explosions is good by my standards. It's just so much fun.... there's all sorts of crazy and messy things that happen, and VINCENT PRICE is in it!!!! You can't resist Vincent Price. I know I can't. Hellraiser, on the other hand, is dead-serious, which is one of the reasons that it's so good. It's gritty, well acted, and contains some of the coolest and best looking villains ever, the Cenobites. It's such a dark movie, it's so good. Highly recommended, if you have a stomach of iron. It's one of those movies that will illicit a grimace every now and again. I'm in a good mood now, but that's liable to change, seeing that I've been manic depressive for the past few weeks, for reasons that I would rather not talk about publically. I miss a certain someone ALOT.. *sadness* Sunday, February 8, 2004 05:39 p.m. this'll be quick... I desperately wish I could say that I didn't see this coming.. Mihoshi Which Tenchi Muyo Character are you? brought to you by Quizilla Wednesday, February 4, 2004 08:47 p.m. a rant First off; is it just me, or does John Kerry look like Dr. Hill from Reanimator? Other than that, no big news. My brother went into rehab, which is good. I hope it helps him more than it hinders. And other than that, I have nothing to talk about. I've been in a really emotional mood since Sunday, so if I'm acting a bit funny or I'm having mood swings more than usual, I'm sorry. The last few days with my brother here were really painful... Music has been sorta triggering emotionality as of late. Last night, as I was typing my Edgar Allen Poe paper, I was listening to Kozi's Promenade, and I just felt like crying all of a sudden. Not bitter or painful tears, but the sort of tears that I cried in Big Fish; tears in response to something beautiful. And then, today, I was drawing Hot Sloth Justice in Art, and listening to Against Me!. When Disco Before the Breakdown was playing, and the horns flared up, I was hit with this deep and emotional feeling. I, once again, just felt like sobbing. It's weird, it's not really sad tears, but it's more like the stuff I was listening to was so beautiful, that I just felt like weeping, and weeping. There were a few other songs that trigger this emotional feeling; Garnet, Walking is Still Honest, and Guts do it the best. I don't know what it is, but GOOD music has been having a different reaction on me lately. It's very nice, it gives me this peaceful feeling inside. I'm very proud of Hot Sloth Justice, seeing that my talent is, well, nonexistant. Ms. Luck seems to like what I do though, I think it's because I always add something weird to the regular stuff. Like, on Friday and Monday, I was sketching a monkey's head. After I had finished the head, I gave him a Victorian suit, and dubbed him Scholar Monkey. He's saying "God save the Queen!" and apparently, as the poster reveals, he has no friends. Hot Sloth Justice was less goofy, but still strange. I drew a picture of a regular sloth, balanced onto a bamboo pole. It would have just looked like a sub-par drawing of a sloth hanging on some weird plant-thingie, but I put in the right hand corner a badge. On that badge, it proclaims "Hot Sloth Justice." So, in case you don't understand, that poorly drawn sloth is an agent of the law. He protects, serves, and will always stand by you. I'm in an oddly peaceful mood, on account of the whole music thing, probably. It's very nice, I'm rarely in such a calm, happy mood. This is, of course, the calm before the storm. On Friday, I have both a MASSIVE chemistry test, and a MASSIVE Schlactner test, on what he said was the hardest unit of the year. I don't think it's terribly difficult, but he's probably planning something incredibly evil. Ah yes, when Friday comes, let the ape-rape begin..... I made my new buddy icon!! it's Kroenen *smilies* I wanted Sammael, but I couldn't find a decent picture. So, the clockwork nazi will have to do. Yay for MS Paint. I really enjoy drawing. I'm not very good at it(read: at all), but it's just so relaxing to sit, play music, drink a soda, and draw. I don't like showing my drawings to other people, on account of the badness, so I just keep it to myself, so I can look at it and think that it isn't all too bad. I really like Hot Sloth Justice *smilies*. I got a painting into the front gallery!! *smilies*. It wasn't good or original, but it's pretty, and it's in the front gallery, so I'm pleased. I wish Wednesdays would happen more often, I have 6 freemods that day, 4 of which are spent at Art, so I end up having 6 mods of Art. I wish I could take Art as an Elective all four years, but unfortunately, that wouldn't look good on my college application. I'm definetly going to take Art club next year, and mebbe Forensics and Fencing (again), and I don't know what electives I'll take. I might take 2 normal ones for the Semester, and replace my Lunchesque freemods with Art. I hope to return to Art as an elective for at least Senior Year... I'm so bad with drawing and painting, but I just love doing it so much. I suppose that that's what really matters *shrugs*. I want Comicon, like, REALLY bad. It's been on my thoughts ever since Comic Book! the Movie. I just crave all the dumb crap to waste my money on, the costumes, the people, EVERYTHING. I might not cosplay this year, but I'm going to at least dress myself up better than usual, and probably style my hair somehow. Mebbe like Klaha had in Shiroi; we have the same hairlength in the front. Though, his gorgeous hair is straight, while the possibly sentient being on my scalp is curly *frowns*. I just CRAVE that feeling again, to go somewhere packed with people, with everything you could possibly want, and everyone there is someone you could probably get along with. Last year I saw a couple dressed up as Queen Toukimi and Tsunami, and I complemented their costumes. They were really well done, and they looked so cute *smilies*. It's incredibly nice to go somewhere where you just fit in. It's like the song Reinventing Axl Rose, it's just somewhere in the world where I feel like I belong. I miss someone ALOT. Well, I miss two people alot, but one that I miss alot, alot. You should know who you are *pokies*. Monday, February 2, 2004 10:42 p.m. *longing* After seeing Comic Book! the Movie on the weekend, I long desperately to go to Comicon. It's really one of the nicest feelings to be packed like sardines in a massive area, but it's filled with people that one can relate to. It's a relaxing and wonderful experience that I miss terribly. I'm thinking of cosplaying this year, either as Snake Eyes or the Punisher... the Punisher's costume would be simpler and easier to recognize, but there's a certain allure to the mute commando ninja. If you don't know anything about GI Joe, you would have NO clue who Snake Eyes is *smilies*. I'm going to start saving soonish, so that I can splurge at the event. But, I need to use my money for more important uses as of now, so saveage will have to wait. Maybe my dream will come true and I'll find a Zodd plushie *smilies* Prefferably Immortal, but Nosferatu might have to do... blagh, I would rather have a Corkus plushie before Nosferatu Zodd *doesn't like Corkus*. I dearly love Comicon *smilies*. As my recent data shows, April through July will be a pretty fantastic period for cinema. in April I get Kill Bil vol. 2, the Punisher, and most importantly, Hellboy, along with the DVD of Bubba Ho-Tep. in May I get Troy and the ever-crappy looking Van Helsing, which will at least be incredibly fun. in June, up comes Prizoner of Azkaban, mebbe Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, and something else that I can't remember. And in July, the big 'un: SPIDER-MAN II. I would have to lable the 1st one as one of my favourite movies period, but I think I've already thoroughly ranted about it on my blog. So there you go. I've been having lots of familical difficulties concerning my brother, and if you're really curious, ask me about it. Argh *frowns* So much work, so little time... someone please shoot me in the face. Monday, February 2, 2004 05:14 p.m. Ever have one of those days that feels like practically everything that could have gone wrong did? Though I know that I could be worse off, I just did *smile*. I'm trying to calm down.. nowish. Saturday, January 31, 2004 02:36 p.m. nifty little quiz *smilies* . EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS = Favorite Spice + Last Foreign Vacation Spot: - Oldbay Cozumel 2. "FLY GIRL" ALIAS (a la J. Lo) = First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of Your Last Name: - B. Bla 3. ROCK STAR ALIAS = Any Liquid on the Bar + Last Name of Bad-Ass Celeb: - Booze Connery 4. DIVA ALIAS = Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen: - Sprinkles MacDraino 5. GIRL DETECTIVE ALIAS = Favorite Baby Animal + Where You First Went To School: - Bun-bun Eisenhower 6. BARFLY ALIAS = Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Drink: - Eggs Doctorpepper 7. SOAP OPERA ALIAS = Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived: - George Glomin Saturday, January 31, 2004 12:20 p.m. ah, crap.... bad stuff happened last night. REALLY bad stuff.... *sighs* it concerns my brother.. just.. blah *unhappiness*. Thursday, January 29, 2004 10:25 p.m. funny story So, today we were in Chemistry, and Doc Fro (the teacher- Doctor Frollini) asked one of the students about leaving books in class. The dialouge went something like this: Doc Fro says, "Stephen, do you need someone to remind you where you leave your stuff?" to which the student replies, "Yeah, 'yo mom!" we start to giggle, and then Doc Fro freezes up, he looks SO pissed off at Stephen. He then says: "I'm sure you're really happy about this, my mother is dead. She died one year ago, today." Everyone shuts up, I feel SO bad for laughing. Then, he brightens up, and says "That was a joke, see, I'm laughing." and everyone starts to giggle, it was great *smilies*. Then, he told us a story from his childhood. He once had a friend, we'll call him Frank, who had a really quick wit. One day, in 11th grade Calculus or some math class, Frank was sitting in front of this really snooty girl. She felt obliged to comment on the condition of his clothing, so she said, "Why don't you get your mother to sew up that hole on your shirt?" Frank then donned a terrible grimace, and screamed, "my mother doesn't have hands!!" and then covered his face in his arms and began to sob. The girl sitting in front of him was horrified, and began to actually sob. So, a young Doc Fro (who apparently lived like in Animal House) got a good laugh out of that. I miss someone I care alot about *weepies* Tuesday, January 27, 2004 05:23 p.m. ah.. I've discovered a new mathematical formula, and that is Bruce Cambell=AWESOME. Seriously, everything he's been in is at the least WATCHABLE when he's on the screen. Even his appearances in Zena were worth it because HE was in it. It's like Spy-Kids, without Antonio Banderas, Alan Cumming, and the other adults, the movie would have been horrible. But, because the adults were in it, it was VERY fun, at least when it wasn't just the kids. This has little to do with what I'm going to talk about, but I just felt like sharing my discoveries with the scientific community. Anyway, so yesterday I saw Bubba Ho-Tep, and it was AWESOME. Not just because Bruce Cambell was in it, mind you. I'll be reviewing that in a bit. Anyway, I've been enjoying Kozi's solo-work. I have 4 songs, Cacophony, ISM, Honey Vanity, and Promenade. At the moment, I'm more fond of Cacophony and ISM, which are industrial technoness, more than Honey Vanity and Promenade, which are.. uh... sorta jazzy.. kinda. They're all really good songs, and he has a really nice voice. I'm very fond of ISM, especially when he goes into the refrain. He's a very talented musician, I hope he does well.. and what happened to Yu~ki!?!? I want the Yu~ki!!!!! *weep weep* Anyway, onto the review of Bubba Ho-Tep. Bubba Ho-Tep: WOW. Just... WOW. There are SO many things going for this movie. So many things made it good. Bruce Cambell as an aged and secretly retired Elvis... Ossie Davis as JFK.. a mummy.... the classic theatre we saw it in.. the audience.. the director.. it was just such a wonderful experience. But I digress, the movie. So, it's present day, and Elvis is in fact, not dead. He's living in a retirement home, unbeknownst to the planet. See, in the 70's, he became sick of his life of drugs and depravity, so he switched places with the best Elvis impersonater in America, a man named Sebastian Haff. So, Elvis, now cleverly disguised as an Elvis impersonater, is starting to get his life back on track. Unfortunately, he falls off of a stage while playing and breaks his hip. After so many years, he's in a retirement home, and he is completely sick of life. That is, until he gets the taste of adventure. There's a stolen mummy going around the retirement home, sucking the souls out of the elderly, and Elvis sets out with JFK, who apparently survived Dallas, to stop it and save his people. Yes, it is hokey. Yes, it is also GOOD. It really shows how terrible some people treat their fathers, there were a number of scenes that made me emotional. It's just such a wonderful movie, and it's SO funny, too. Not unintentionally, it's just magical. And the audience was FANTASTIC. Everyone was laughing, cheering, it was just so amazing. Best audience for a movie that I've ever seen, that I can remember, at any rate. And the director was such a nice fellow! he was really funny, and warm, it was just great. He was a really nice guy. Now, I know I don't like giving scores for movies that are over 5, but if I gave Jason and the Argonauts 28, this deserves a little extra. 40,000,000,000 out of 5 Benjies. Monday, January 26, 2004 12:46 p.m. this is not my free will... I don't have anything to blog about, but I'm going to try! So yesterday, I spent all of my saved money on DVDs and a trenchcoat, and I think it was worth it. The Spider-Man series is SO GOOD, the animation is great. Do I have a bone to pick with it? YES. There are not one, but TWO episodes with Electro in it. How many have The Lizard? ONE. Am I the only one who sees something horribly wrong with this!?!??! I guess so. Anyway, I love the Lizard so much, partly because he's a huge lizard. But I digress.. I guess.. So yeah, I have nothing to talk about. I'm happy because I'm seeing a movie tonight, but most importantly because I have a sick friend who's feeling better. DRINK PLENTY OF GREEN TEA!!! So, there you go. I have to shovel the driveway now, so peace-out. Sunday, January 18, 2004 10:33 a.m. whoa.. I just had, like, the KING of weird dreams, it was EEEPIC. I started writing on a piece of paper right after I woke up, so I wouldn't forget any details. It was HUGE, it had a loose plot, and it didn't make any sense. See, it all started as I was in a large candy-market, before getting on a cruise ship with my family. I wanted to get a cotton-candy flavoured strip of bubble gum, but prior to that I had given all of my money to my brother so he could feed his candy-cravings. So, disheartened, I headed onto the dock with my dad as he carried nearly everyone else's luggage. When we walked onto the ship, my dad and I became separated from everyone else, and by the time we found our way, the rest of the family had already passed. we got to this bright white room, and the walls had these strange, Lovecraftian angles. the floor to the exitway was covered in this yellow, thick, acid. There were these big fluffy boxes floating in it, though, and we had to jump on those to pass. The guides at the exitway said that they would lower a bridge for us, due to the baggage, and let us walk across. Unfortunately, as they lowered the bridge, it split in half, and the guides fell in and melted. I went jumping over the blocks first, and my dad would throw me luggage, and he would jump, and we repeated this method many, many times. Finally, we got to the exit, and I lost my dad, but I gained a pistol with one of those little silencers screwed onto the front. The hallway, once again, sported strange Lovecraftian geometry, and it turned and twisted as it went foreward. There was someone walking ahead of me, always turning down the hallway just after he was visible, and I was trying to shoot him for some odd reason. I kept on failing and following, and then I entered this HUGE domed room. There were doorways ALL over it, as in on the ceiling and stuff, and I took the one closest to me. I was, all of a sudden, in a huge, endless desert. But, apparently I could fly, so I started flying. On the way, I saw a person chained to a cactus, but the person told me to go on without stopping to rescue him. After a few seconds of flying, I came to this huge glass arched building, with both ends open. It was like those indoor plane storage areas, but it was entirely made out of glass, and the flat ends were open. Inside, there was this fat business man, dressed in white, and wearing a monacle. He didn't notice me when I entered the building, but he had a thug, and somehow I knew his name was Bruno. All over the inside of the building were these huge drawers, the kind that one would put nice silverware and plates in, the ones with the glass sides so you could admire the craftsmanship, and they were labelled such things as, "Wall Street," "Disney," "Krispy Kreme," "Music Record Label Company," "Movie Studio Pictures," and just "Food." Inside these glass cabinets were incredibly tiny wooden statues, depicting things that went on in such companies, like there were hundreds of little people making doughnuts in the Krispy Kreme cabinet, and there were all of these little wooden business men in the Wall Street cabinet. Anyway, the businessman in the white suit was playing golf, hitting balls out into the desert. I was worried that he might hit the poor person attached to the cactus, so I ran in and stopped him. He yelled at me alot and told Bruno to take me over to some machine. As I stood on it and Bruno started it, I pulled him in before the mysterious process began. The machine then turned us into cartoony CG'd people, much like the way that regular people looked in Shrek. for some reason, after the process was done, I was wearing a black trenchcoat and a black fedora, like a detective, and I ran in horror. I just started running down the hallways, and all these bizzare monsters were chasing after me. I finally lost them, and I was in one of the hallways, and I heard a really sad voice calling out through a sewer drain on the ground. I tried to pull it open, but I wasn't strong enough, so I tried to find a grate that was easier to pull off. a green arrow led the way, and I found myself back in the huge glass room. there was a huge grate on the floor in front of a flight of stairs, and I managed to pull it open. Inside were my father and a human version me from a different dream. My father was horribly beaten up, and the human-me was already dead. I lifted my dad out, and he was talking about how they were tortured by the businessman. He then died in my arms, and I started to weep furiously. I took him out into the desert and buried him and the human-me. I then went to the front of the stairs, and the businessman came down with Bruno, only now Bruno was huge and looked like a grey The Thing (Fantastic Four's Thing, not John Carpenter's Thing). I went up the stairs to duke it out with Bruno, figuring that because I was now a cartoon, I could fight him with crazy and mildly humourous powers. I was wrong, as he kicked the living Hell out of me. He beat me up pretty bad, and left me in a bloody and bruised state at the top of the stairs. The businessman started giving an evil-villain speech about how they could never be beaten by the likes of me. I got really determined, forced myself up, and grabbed a pike from somewhere. I then went about smashing the glass cases that I mentioned earlier, and taking all of the wooden people and animals out. I destroyed the Wall Street one first, then the Krispy Kreme one, which oozed doughnut-juice as I smashed it into pieces, and then when the Disney one was all that was left, the buisness man came up to me and started pleading that I save it, and he chastized me for destroying all of those jobs, and that I would be attacked by the people, and I just sat there and looked at him, with my baseball bat (somewhere it went from a steel pike to a baseball bat) facing the last case. After a good bit of ranting, the businessman thought he had convinced me, in which I took a few minutes to completely destroy the Disney case. He started rolling around in the glass shards, crying, as I helped the little wooden people up. All of a sudden, they all smiled, and became real people, filling up the building. They were all thanking me for saving them, and running up to me and shaking my hand, which was pretty nice. Then, Mr. Buisnessman got up off of the ground, and started yelling at them, because now they didn't have jobs. They all didn't like him, and there was a big lion standing behind him, and the lion growled. As it went to eat the businessman, I woke up. I then started writing this on a sheet of graph paper, which I have now thrown away because it's all here. Yeah, it was a pretty weird dream........ And other than that, I don't have much to say. Thursday, January 15, 2004 06:00 p.m. one more... thank God.. thank Heavens, I've finally reached the last review. For the most part, it's been alright, but this will be the bleakest and less interesting of all of them. Why? because I'm going to be reviewing an Against Me! EP, and making poor, poor attempts at reviewing Naked Lunch, which might actually be impossible. I'm going to start with Crime, 'cause I'm gonna need time to actually form an opinion on the weirdest friggin' movie ever made. Sit back, relax, and skip these reviews: Against Me! Crime: I Still Love You Julie: I think this is just a song that criticizes liars and people who don't live in fantasy worlds, it's pretty good. I've just decided to glaze over the meanings of these songs now, 'cause yesterday I went off on some of the nuttiest tangents, and if you've read any of these reviews, I talk about lying. So, the music. This is a really, really, REALLY good song. I used to like the Reinventing Axl Rose version, but this is, well, better. It's an aquired taste, but I think he screams better in this. Good, good stuff. What We Worked For: This song seems to be first about their music, and what the narrator thinks of how he started out, and then it transforms into the narrator talking about a better place beyond the cities and the general scumminess. It's kind of beautiful the way he describes it, "There's a height beyond skyscrapers, there's a distance beyond the freeway, more than pictures in a magazine, more than tragedy in a rock n' roll song. It's more than actions you know it's safe to make, it's more than money can ever buy." This line, alone, resurrected my enjoyment of the band. This is what I was talking about yesterday in my happiness rant, that there is a scummy and crusty side of the earth, but there is also a beautiful and kind side to it. This is just... wow. My rant yesterday was about how it seems like all that Against Me! acknowledges is the crusty side, but there's this wonderful side to everything. This is it, the beauty and serenity behind the filth and the unhappiness. And when he says "more than tragedy in a rock n' roll song," that justifies all the bad stuff that he described in their music, it's really just poignant and in a way, beautiful. It's settled, I like this band alot again, just for that line. Oh yeah, the music. This is a REALLY good song. Not just for the lyrics, but the music is fantastic. if I was rating this alone, it would be a 5 out of 5 Benjies. This is a FANTASTIC song. Yall Don't Wanna Step to Dis: This is a REALLY, REALLY powerful anti-war song. This concerns one of the newer wars, and how so many lives were ruined, and how the narrator has killed and now can't forget, so he drowns himself in a bottle, and then the country and the world still moves on, not stopping to listen to the horrors, it's really poignant. I'm quite strong on anti-war, although I will admit that some wars were neccesary for the safety of the human race, like World War II. The music is really interesting in this, at first, when the narrator is talking about the pains and the unrest that he goes through after the war, he speaks slowly, and he sounds like a depressed drunk, which carries with the lyrics well. Then, when he starts talking about the horrors that he went through during the conflict, he starts to scream, and the music gets faster, and people scream in the backround, it's one of the finest examples of music being a boat for lyrics that I've heard. This is a poignant, sad, strong, and incredible song. With this and the last song, this is, so far, a pretty Incredible EP. Walking is Still Honest: Hrm... I think this song switches perspectives, 'cause if it didn't, it would make very little sense... Anyway, this song makes me think it's a son who's gone to wartime, and he's died, and now he's criticizing his mother or the society for lying to him, making it seem better than was. That's more of a guess and my personal interpretation, I hardly think it's right, though. So, it's a really intresting and deep song, the way I interpret it. The music is pretty good, not VERY VERY AWESOME, but it's pretty good. Impact: This is another really poignant song, really, really good stuff. I think it's talking about how terrible it is that so many wars and conflicts go unnoticed by the masses, and people die in those, and are just sort of forgotten about. It's the kind of song that makes you think about the media, and what we aren't allowed to know. The music is rather good, the guitar work is, as usual, incredible. This is a great song, in many ways. It's listenable, meaningful, and not painfully depressing. A fine work, no doubt. Burn: This is a seeecret song, so no lyrics for you! Basically, it's just a really good song. It's fast-paced, well-musicalated, and well-sung. I'm very fond of it. **UPDATE** I'm going to have the lyrics forced onto me, so I'll interpret them, WRONGLY. See, this band often sings about themselves, and I'm used to music that tells a story with different characters, so I'm often innacurate about these meanings. Bleh. Wait for a certain someone to find the complete lyrics. Alright, they've been found. This song reminds me of many of Phillip K. Dick's stories, about oppresive governments in the future and such. This probably isn't right, but it's what I think of when I read the lyrics. 'cause the way everything is described, it sounds like the buildup to the full-blown oppression. Just the way they describe it, it sounds like it's as the oppression builds up, and then they talk about thugs in riot gear in future-tense, so that's what it made me think of. Overall: This is my favourite Against Me! thing that I've reviewed. All of the music is good, and the lyrics are powerful and moving, without being painful emotionally. Almost all of the songs were perfect, so this really deserves a 4.7 out of 5 Benjies. THANK GOD THOSE REVIEWS ARE OVER. I was just fine reviewing Spaceship Zero and Klaha, but those were FUN. Against Me! is not on the same plane as that music. Against Me! might be "better," but the reviews are SO boring to make! I don't mind pouring over the songs and thinking about them either, but the TYPING and the FORMULATION OF WORDS is just so damn boring! if I can't tell an interesting and fantastical story while reviewing it, it's not much fun! Still, with that aside, I've grown more appreciation for their music now. I think it was a good idea to do this, because now I know more about the band, and I understand how they feel about things. This might have been boring, but it was a REALLY good experience. I'm very glad I did it. If given the chance not to do it with the knowledge that it would be boring, I probably would still do it, because I've found a new appreciation for their works. I decided not to really review Naked Lunch, because I have NO CLUE what I would give that weird, twisted movie. Basically, it's about an exterminator who becomes addicted to a substance that he uses to kill insects, and then he becomes addicted to the cure for the addiction to the bug-spray. He starts having MAD paranoid hallucinations, and he travels to a place called Interzone, and he begins to write a book without knowing it. It's just... SO DAMN WEIRD. I liked the movie alot, but... I don't know, I really can't think of what to give it, point-wise. It would be high on the scale, not perfect, but... Gah, I have no clue. It's filled with complex metaphors about drug-use, and after watching this and thinking about it's meanings, I'm afraid of aspirin. This is such a weird movie. It's really good, but REALLY weird.... I'm glad to be done with this string of reviews. Not because the time-consumement and the achy fingers are gone for awhile, but because I've learned alot. I now appreciate DotHT, Against Me!, and Klaha more, just in different ways. Darkest' is good for fun music, Against Me! is good for calming down anger music, and Klaha is good for being happy and fluffy music. I really have gained a much greater liking for these 3 musical peoples, and I'm glad of it. It might have been boring at times, it might have made my back achey from leaning over to type, and it might have made my fingers lazy for typing for hours on end, but it's really been worth it. I'm very glad I did this, and I'm very thankful to who suggested it *smilies*. The weird dreams have continued, last night I had a dream about Fragglerockian political intrigues. It was like the episode of Berserk when the queen tries to assasinate Griffith, but with Fragglerocks. It was morbid and creepy watching Fragglerocks burn... I wonder what tonight will bring *smilies!* maybe an extended repeat of Monday/Tuesday night's dream... *hopies*. I'm missing some people and especially a certain person alot, generally I'm feeling lonely *mopies*. I hope you've all had your fill of ranting, 'cause when these reviews end, I run out of stuff to say. If I have a weird(and not embarrasing in a Freudian way) dream tonight, I'll probably talk about it in depth tomorrow. So, yeah. Wednesday, January 14, 2004 nowish *shrugs* really, really bored... Almost done with these.... almost done.. they now seem so empty without the Darkest of the Hillside Thickets, but I must press on.. only 2 more days left.. Alright, so today I'll be reviewing another Against Me! CD, I'll find out the name when I get to reviewing it, and Klaha's Nostal Lab. I'll probably only translate the songs that I really like in that, so you'll just be subjected to commentary on the music and how I think Klaha should dress judging by the music. So, without further ado, skip the Against Me! reviews and go straight to the Klahay goodness! Against Me! as the Eternal Cowboy: T.S.R.: This is a really pleasant song. The music is really powerful, and this has a nice meaning in the lyrics. I think this is the singer saying basically, if his life is just touring and playing, then he doesn't want to die. It's really good stuff. Unfortunately, it's a short song, but it's got really strong music and a welcomed ununhappy message. I wish this was the last song, because I'm sure that in only a little bit, I'll be swimming in bleakity. But, still, this is a great song *smilies.* Cliche Guevara: This is a really, really good song. Not only is it vehemently against fighting, but the music is really, really good, as well. It's saying that revolutions happen so frequently now, that many have forgotten what revolutions are for, and now just do it to kill. But, they say how that's wrong, and it's a really good song. The music is catchy, and really good, too. So, this is off to a good start. Mutiny on the Electronic Bay: One line, in particular, is really powerful concerning worldly current affairs. "When an invasion, can bring a country to it's freedome.. no, I don't know what to say." I'm not going to begin to talk about my feelings on the Conflict with Iraq, but I can see that this line can apply to it. My feelings on that are mostly negative, but they're still all jumbled, so I don't want to think about it. This is a decent song, but it would be MUCH better if it was longer and had more time to develope. So, it's viciously decent. Sink, Florida, Sink: this is a really weird song.. it has a realistic and depressing meaning set against a surreal enviroment. It seems like it's a man coping with a poor relationship, as... well, Florida sinks. I like the oddness of the lyrics for once (I wub odd things!) and the music is REALLY good. This is definetly one of my favourite Against Me! songs, because it's weird and good, and musically Awesome. I need more weird music.... *writhes*. Slurring the Rhythms: This seems like another one of their touring songs, so it's not depressing. This isn't a very positive song either, but it's still good. The lyrics are about how they've constantly moved on in their tours, and it's pretty interesting. The music is alright, a step above decent. All in all, this is an okay song. Not decent, not crappy, not good, just sort of alright. Like, it's listenable, but not something moving or knockmeouttamyseat-esque good. Rice and Bread: This seems to be a song with dual-messages. On one side, it's talking about the record-industry selling people only what the majority wants to hear, and the negative things in that, I think it's sort of about not selling out, and keeping your dignity doing what you think you should. I think the other thing Against Me! is talking about is the importance of music, and the powerful medium that is for conducting ideas. Once again, not a depressing song, which is good. The music is, likewise, pretty good, I've heard a live that I liked much more, but this is still pretty good, that live was AWESOME. Generally, this song is really quite good. A Brief Yet Triumphant Intermission: This has no lyrics, but GAH, it's SO GOOD! it's just a minute and a half of them playing their instruments, and they do it SO WELL. THIS is Fantastic! Great, Great stuff. Unsubstantiated Rumours are Good Enough for Me to Base my Life Upon: Wonderfully long title *smile*. Obviously, they are being sarcastic about the title, but basically, I think the song is about a person who does just this. When they realize that the title is what has happened to them, they don't care, and just try to live under their own lies. The music is pretty good, it's listenable, but not like, addictive. The lyrics are quite powerful, and being honest is really important. It's odd, but I actually like this song for the lyrics, not the music. Huh. You Look Like I Need a Drink: This is a sad song, but it's not sad, like I feel like moping, but more like the kinda sad when I feel bad for the narrator. I think he's gone somewhere, and he hates it, and he's made many bad decisions where he is now, and these crappy decisions are catching up to him and destroying him. It's not the sort of depressed where I feel personally affected, but it's definetly the sort of sad where I feel bad for the narrator. In that sense, it's not as profound a sadness, but it is MUCH MUCH preffered, and if I was pointing it, it would be higher than if it bummed me out. When sadness is represented in this fashion, I prefer it, because although I can respect it and feel sympathy, I am not hurt by the song. I know that it is a shallower view of the situation, but I am just not fond of being depressed by something that I should be enjoying, being music. But, I digress. The music is really good in this song, I'm very, very fond of the refrain. It's hard, but enjoyeable and listenable at the same time. This is good, good stuff. Turn Those Clapping Hands into Angry Balled Fists: I think this song is about trying to escape from conformity, and just not really being able to. It's depressing like You Look Like I Need a Drink is depressing, as in, I can sense the pain and sympathise with the narrator, but I can't really relate. 'Cause I've never had a problem with conformity in my youth, generally I've been treated kindly in spite of the differences I might have. When I get made fun of for long hair, or the way I dress, I don't immediately think about getting a haircut, it's just something I live with. Now, I know that conformity is a much bigger issue in adulthood, when one has to get a job, but as of right now, for the most part, I live comfortably with my differences. I have my friends and my father to thank for that, mostly *smilies!* I wub all of you! But, I digress. This is a REALLY good song, music-wise, the sort of goodness that illicits singing-alongity. I'm very, very fond of this song *smilies!*. Cavalier Eternel: This is definetly one of my favourite Against Me! songs. It's really sad lyric-wise, but the way the music carries it, it almost seems satyrical. It's about a relationship that hasn't gone well, at all, and the people involved have broken up, both being at fault for the crumminess. What makes this song undepressing is the MUSIC. It's got this wonderful countryesque sound to it, it's fantastic! *smilies* this is such a neat song, because it's depressing, yet enjoyeable at the same time. Truly a fine work on their part. Overall: This is a great album. The lyrics weren't as depressing in comparison, and for the most part, the music holds up to the previous albums that I have reviewed, and the other songs that I've heard. I like some of the songs very, very much, but a few of the songs just seem like they were cut off short. They're still really good the way they are, though. There's nothing bad, but alot of it is just decent, only a few songs stand out on here. Still, I like the lyrics much more, so I think this deserves a solid 4.5 out of 5 Benjies. Klaha: Nostal Lab: It would be virtually impossible to do this review without maximum swoonage utilized, so bear with me. I suggest wearing HAZMAT suites if you read this, because the radiation level will be dangerous. Now, onward! Oh, some of the titles will be in English from translations, because I can't read practically any katakana or kanji.... Shinsho Prism: This is a weird song... it sounds like a lullaby, it's not very complex, but it's cute. So, I like to think of Klaha dressed up in ragtime attire with a big handlebar mustache, leaning into a baby carriage and dingling some plaything. The baby is getting upset because Klaha's awesomeness is making it uncomfortable, so he's crying. Yeah... that would be a pretty great video. Klaha would have this really big open-mouthed smile, and his handlebar mustache would cover part of it up, and in the carriage these little arms would be trying to move him away 'cause no child should ever have to experience that kind of Awesome at such a young age. Or, the kid might be squirming because Klaha would look scary as hell with a handlebar mustache. *shrugs* Scape ~with Transparent wings~: before I review this song, I must state my love for those little squiggly lines. Without those, I don't think I would be able to function on a computer. You little squiggly guys are great. Anyway, the song. This is the first time Klaha's voice is heard on the CD, and it's REALLY beautiful. The last song had this oldy-tymey audio quality (hence the ragtime gear and the handlebar mustache), whereas this has CRYSTAL-CLEAR sound, and it makes his voice all the more gorgeous. I'm fond of this song because of his voice, mostly; the music is passable, but without Klaha's inherent awesomeness, this wouldn't be able to pull into and dock at Port Benjy. Hrm... this song doesn't draw up any particularly funny images on my head, so be happy with my rant as it exists now. Taiyou no ori: well, this song is REALLY, REALLY good. With that said, I'm going to talk about the visuals that this make me think of. When I was younger, I had a Sega Saturn, and there was one game I absolutely loved called Nights. It was about dreams, and when you dreamed, you became this pretty coloured flying chibi-Jester, and you collected clocks so you could sleep longer, and sometimes you would divebomb weird surreal monsters 'cause they wanted you to wake up, and they wanted this bad. So, with that said, the music in that game sounded EXACTLY like the music in this song, it had that same light, nice sound to it. But, Klaha wasn't singing. So, what I thought of in this song was Klaha, dressed in a bright and shiny jester costume, flying around a surreal and cartoonish landscape. He would likewise collect clocks so that he doesn't have to wake up and remember that he used to have dignity. I say this because no human being would ever make a choice to go from dressing in Victorian clothing to singing about being a chubby penguin.. but I digress. So, he flies around, and sometimes he divebombs bosses, and he flies s'more. The end. Red Room ~garasu no hana~: Um... this is like a cross between Zorro and Ricky Martin, both given heavy, possibly lethal doses of Klaha. I like the Zorroesque parts ALOT, but when the electric guitar picks up, I'm dishappied. It's not bad, but it would have been so much better if it was just the Zorro Klaha. Now, the video would have to be like this.. when the Zorro parts are happening, it's Klaha running around dressed like Zorro, utilizing both his amazing fencing skills and his "acting" skills, fighting off evil Spanish soldiers and saving the peasants of the land! Then, when the guitar kicks up, everything takes a turn for the crappening, as Klaha wiggles his hips and stands in front of a highpowered fan, wearing grotesquely tight pants and an unbuttoned white shirt. Gah, thinking about it makes my eyes bleed. Then it goes back to Klaha kicking the ass of oppressive governments and "acting," and I am pleased *smilies!*. Penguin: Dear God.... it's beautiful... I don't think I could describe this song with mere swoons alone, it's an equal to the finest artwork on Earth... I do quote, and I will say that there might not be finer poetry in existance, "I wish I get wing, can fly in the sky..." such... beauty... In all seriousness, this is one of my favourite songs, period. *Smilies!* it's just so magical, and nice, and sweet, but it's not too sweet like Morning Musume, it's just, like, the perfect nice song *smilies!!!*. And the meaning is so dear!! it's so nice, and hopeful, and just wonderful!!! *happy happy!!* I love this song so muuuuuch!!!! *wigglies! frantic wigglement, at that!!!* I hope that if he does move back to his Dark Prince look, that he won't forget the simple magic that this song contains. Seriously, this is one of the best songs, ever. The video for this would need Klaha shipped to Penguin country in a penguin suit. And I don't mean the tuxedo with tails, I mean like what a mascot would wear, a big, fluffy, ridiculous looking penguin suit with Klaha's face coming out of its mouth. And he would just sort of dance around with the crowds of penguins, and hug them, and chase after them, and dive into the freezing waters to look for fish with them, and eat the raw fish with them.... ah, fantasies are good.. *happy little bug!!!* Kanjou Prism: This song is like Shinsho prism, in that it makes me think of Ragtime Klaha, but it's not a lullaby. This reminds me more of Klaha, now in a Southern Gentleman outfit, with a vest, pocketwatch, little reading glasses, and the handlebar mustache, sitting on a porch looking out into a field with some butterflies, and drinking lemonade. Yeah, I might be insane... Kiseki no Koe: The way the music sounds in this makes me think of Klaha playing in the streets of Morocco, armed with only his voice, a bongo, and a tambourine.. it has this pleasant, calm vibe to it, and more instruments come in when other street musicians hear his singing, and his tambourining, and they bring sitars, and flutes, and it just builds up from that. I'm very fond of this song, the way it gradually becomes greater and greater, it's a good song *smilies!* It's also funny to think about Klaha dressed in the native fashion *smilies!* Chocolat: hee!!! this is so funny!! the simple beginning makes me think of 50's wuvvy-duvvy music! So, Klaha's sitting in a diner dressed as a greaser, with leather jacket and his hair all smeared-about with motor-oil. And he's eating a big sundae with a nice little girl in a poodle skirt, and they're talking and smiling, and then Klaha's eyes brighten and the song bursts out into it's nu-fluff, and she's amazed, and they get into his convertible, which then immediately flies into the air as he sings to her and shows her all of these foreign lands like in that Small World ride at Disneyworld, and she's amazed, and Klaha keeps singing and smiling and being Klaha, and then after all of these amazing places, he drives to her house, drops her off, she kisses him on the cheek, and he gets all blushy and flies into the sky again. Wow, that would be so neat..... Chameleon no seppun: Quite the opposite of the uber-fluff presented in the last song, this would be a Noir-esque 1930's Klaha-shootemup. Klaha would be a detective dressed in the classic garb, a sand-coloured hat and trenchcoat, and he would be trying to solve the murder of another detective. So, he would go all over this decrepid 1930'sesque city, thugs would attack him, and he would fight them off using his street-smarts, his fists, and his revolver. It would be like Dick Tracey meets Humphrey Bogart meets Klaha. And every once and awhile, the video would switch to him in a niteclub, dressed in a white suit, singing the song. And then it would be back to him punching and shooting seedy thugs in the streets of... wherever. And finally he would solve the mystery, and the murderer was the pretty lady on the piano like it always is in those old mysteries, so he would toss her behind bars. And that's the end of that chapter. File it under K... for Klaha! Sayonara: In all seriousness, this is a beautiful song. It lacks the charm of Penguin, but unlike Penguin, this is actually a beautiful song. I'll spare you of the insane metaphors, because what this song makes me think of would be Klaha singing at someone's funeral, which isn't very humourous. It just has this air of sadness, the way the music flows, and the way he sings, it's just moving. I'm not going to look up what it means right now, 'cause I don't want to end my Klaha Happy High(TM), but this is really a beauiful song, it transcends the language barrier by moving me without knowing what it means. This is an excellent song. Green ~tsutaetai omomi~: This is like Klaha ODing on his own Happy High....... in this song, Klaha doesn't need the flying convertible, HE FLIES ON HIS OWN. All I can think of is Klaha on some Island of Hideously Cute Things, and he's marching with them and singing, dressed like he does on the cover of this CD, all white... and he has this maddeningly happy look in his eyes, and he's constantly smiling... and he gathers up all of the cute things on the island, and marches to his big cruise ship, and then he's hit with lightning and becomes dressed in a captain's uniform, and he leads the cute things onto his ship, and the ship blasts off into the sky like a rocket ship while all of the animals are in wonderment, and he flies to all of the crying children all over the Earth, and gives them animals to be happy with, so now the lonely monsters and the sad children are all happy, and after traveling all over the earth, he has one left, and it's all sad and lonely, but he hears a child on the moon crying, so he flies to the moon and drops the last monster off, so all the sad and lonely children get adorable creatures to be happy with, and everyone lives happily ever after 'cause Klaha saved the day! Oh, the strange things that my mind sees... But, this song is SO SWEET. It's like the music was laced with candies and other such sweets, so if you listen to it, you feel better, while gaining pounds. This is such an incredible song!! I'm listening to it, and smiling, and laughing, it's just wonderful! it's like an anti-depressant!! I loves it!! *happy happy happy!!!* Kaihou Prism: Hrm. The way the beginning of this song plays out, it reminds me of a theme in a war-movie. Just the way the drumming is played out, it makes me think of that. I don't know, other than that, I can't really create a visual for this. It sort of reminds me of the finale of Glory, when the Union army is charging the Confederate fort, and they are beaten violently. So, when I think of it like that, it's quite moving. Then, the ending switches to the lukllabiacle theme of the first song, and it just gives a feeling of closure to the CD that is rarely exercized in CDs. So, I end with thinking of Klaha with a handlebar mustache, scaring the daylights out of a baby, so all is good. Overall: *smilies* This is a ridiculously enjoyable CD. I had fun reviewing it, this and Spaceship Zero were the only really pleasant CD reviews so far. This was a warm and fuzzy kind of pleasant though, so it stands on different grounds than Spaceship Zero. Klaha's commanding voice really makes this music, without it, most of the songs wouldn't be very good. I'm very fond of the different feelings he had in these songs, like comparing Chameleon no seppun to Penguin to Chocolat. This is really just good, fun music. If Klaha plans on returning to the Dark Prince, he'd better not forget about this part of his heart. That little piece that's a stubby penguin that dreams of flying... Oh, yeah, points. I'd have to say 4.5 out of 5 Benjies. These CD reviews have been interesting. I'm rating enjoyability mostly with the point system, so Against Me! is always in last place, even though their lyrics are definetly more meaningful than the stuff that they're juxtaposed with. I think, by pairing the music together, it makes it seem like Against Me! is just a group of bitter and unhappy people, while Darkest seems like a group of people who know how to take things in a joking and fun manner, and Klaha seems like he was hallucinating when he made this stuff. I know Against Me! are not these bitter and mean jerks, but I think the way I'm pairing them with sillier and more enjoyable stuff is hindering my feelings about them. I just really don't like people who are bitter all the time. It's one thing to make a few sad songs, but when all of your songs talk about how screwed up everything is, it seems like you're only looking at the crusty side of the earth, without acknowledging that there are all sorts of great things, both simple and complex, coexisting with all of the depravity and filth. And the goodness is still there, it gets tossed around by the crappiness alot, but it's never really snuffed out. If you choose to swim around with all the crud, and the unhappiness, and the negativity, you're just helping it become a larger hive-mind, you aren't changing anything or making the world a better place. Wow, that was a big tangent. I'm not saying Against Me! does this at all, in fact, the more I think of Eternal Cowboy, the less Against Me! mingles with bitteriety. It's odd, because all of their songs seem so angry, but some of them also talk about how the crusty side of the world sucks... ah, well, they're still really good. This whole idea about Against Me! vs. the Crusty Side of the Earth is something I need to think about and explore, so don't barge in with your opinions, unless you have proof FROM the band that I've interpreted a bunch of their songs wrong. I'll believe that, but your own opinions won't help me, 'cause I'm the highly influenced type. THAT WAS A REALLY BIG RANT, and I still don't know what I'm talking about... weird. Anyway, I continue to have weird dreams, and I remember parts of other dreams that make them weirder... it's all just weird. Um... tomorrow you'll get another Against Me! CD, and probably a review of Naked Lunch, in which I will have to type out some words that I'm not comfortable typing out for the general public to see. I really hope the next CD doesn't hinder my feelings about them any more... I really like the music, but constantly bitter stuff pisses me off.. tune in tomorrow for.... MORE ranting!!! Tuesday, January 13, 2004 07:06 p.m. more reviews! bored? I am too!! Alright, so like the title said, you're getting more reviews. If this is boring you, I'm sorry, I'm doing a favour for a friend. Today we will be discussing Spaceship Zero by the Darkest of the Hillside Thickets and an untitled acoustic EP from Against Me!. I'm going to start with the EP, because from what I've learned, Against Me! is bitter and depressing, whereas Darkest of the Hillside Thickets has the right spunkiness to cheer me up. After this, I'll be talking about my life, so either a.) tune in for that and skip the reviews, or b.) stick around for me ranting about Lovecraft's irrisistable charms and how Against Me! makes me want to cry in my reviews. 'Cause I know that noone would REALLY read all of this crap! untitled Against Me! acoustic EP: Jordan's First Choice: Upon first listening, I had no clue what it was about. The first half sounded like it was about a false relationship, while the second half was about, like, selling out and lying to your origins. But, thanks to some tutorage, and a reread of the lyrics, the song sounds like it's about selling out. The music generally was sorta good, but the meaning is important. It's always important to remember who you are. People shouldn't try to change this, for the most part, because nearly everything has some amount of beauty in it, even if it needs to have some coating peeled off. But now I'm talking like a guidance counselor. Those Anarcho Punks are Mysterious: Well, my tutor has abandoned me, and this album is more confusing than the last one. So, I might be 'wrong' if these lyrics are supposed to be interpreted in a specific way. I think this song is basically about trying to use violence to solve class struggles, and I think the band is saying that violence isn't a solution, and you shouldn't get pushed into either agree or disagree, with no shades of grey inbetween. At least, I hope that's what they're saying, 'cause I would be a bit disgusted if they're calling for a violent overthrow of the government. I'll agree that the government does alot of shady stuff, but they do incredibly important things, as well, like funding research institutes. I'm not going to rant about this, because I really want to get to the Thickets. The music is pretty good, not bouncy, but better than Jordan's First Choice. Reinventing Axl Rose: This is a really pleasant song *smilies!* I'm very fond of it. The music is, like, extra-bouncy, and the lyrics are really nice. It's just about going to a place where differences can be forgot, and problems, and where people can just enjoy themselves without the ugly side of the world barging in and bullying people around. It's a really nice and positive message. The music is really catchy, quite bouncy *smile*. This is a really good song to listen to when you're lonely. Good stuff. We Did it All for Don: I could interpret this song in a few ways, but I'm going to go with the most positive, and I think it's a song about the importance of friends and company. I think it could be thought of as not betraying your friends, and just trying to stay together, even through horrible times and situations. With that said, I'll get to my favourite part, the music. This is definetly one of my favourite Against Me! songs. It's just such a good song to listen to, the music and beat is great! I *heart* it. It's just a really good song, possibly for the lyrics, but definetly for the music. Pints of Guinness Make you Strong: This is a particularly sad song about a woman who loses her love, and thus loses a part of herself. I think the lover dies on Saint Patrick's day, possibly from a riot, and from that day forth she is an empty person. It's quite sad. The music is alright, but I'm not too fond of it, it isn't nearly as catchy as We Did it All for Don. I really don't have much to say about this song, it's decent. Untitled: This is a secret track, and the lyrics aren't printed in the CD case. I want to get to the Thickets and I'm too lazy to look up the lyrics, so I'll be reviewing just the music. This is up there with We Did it All for Don, the music is great. I find myself singing the refrain, because it's a really, really, really catchy song. I sort of don't want the lyrics in entirety, because generally is seems like a bitter song, and I don't want to listen to it and get depressed all of the time. Music-wise, this is a solid work. Overall: This is a pretty good EP. The only song that isn't really good is Pints of Guinness, and that's hardly unlistenable. Plus, this has 2 of my favourite Against Me! songs on it, so once again, it's pretty good. Still, it does lose points because some of the songs still bum me out, and in comparison to some other music, this is much deeper but less enjoyable. 4.3 out of 5 Benjies Darkest of the Hillside Thickets: Spaceship Zero Theme to Spaceship Zero: Ah, this is classic. It's just jamming and a countdown for Spaceship Zero to launch. The jam is really good, and it has this light-hearted rock feeling, a refreshing departure from Against Me!. It's just alot of fun, and it sets the mood for the Darkestaning to come. Good, solid jamming. 20 Minutes of Oxygen: This is a confusing song about Time Travel. The narrator wants to go back in time to tell someone to pick a certain switch to keep oxygen flow in a room, but alas, he is too stupid to build a time machine. Yeah, it's weird. But the music is entertaining, and even with the sort of depressing lyrics, the general mood of the song doesn't bum me out. This isn't their best, but it's catchy and pretty good overall. The Innsmouth Look: CLASSIC!!! *frantic wigglement!!* This is SOOOO one of my favourite songs. Period. It's SO cute, and funny, and incredible!! Once again, it won't make a drop of sense to a non-Lovecraft reader, but it's funny to me! It's about some poor bloke who falls in love with a Deep one, and it's just SO great!! he talks about the things he likes about her like so: "I dig her batrachian lips, her bulbous eyes and scaly hips" and this makes me giggle with glee!! 'Cause you see, Deep Ones are fish people, and his girlfriend is becoming one! And Dagon approves of it, which is good for their relationship. Ah, this is SUCH A GOOD SONG. If I were to rate this album off of this song, it would be, like, 10 out of 5 Benjies. WONDERFUL, WONDERFUL STUFF. Power Up: This is a really good, albeit weird song. I know it's about superheros, and they become really popular and sell out, and then when their villains move on from villainy, they lose everything. I'm not looking for a deeper meaning, but basically, I think Against Me! handled the issue of selling out better than this, but this is INFINETLY more enjoyable. Whereas Against Me! seems incredibly serious about everything, the 'Thickets handle things with a much more humourous and enjoyable atmosphere. If I had to choose songs about sellingoutness, I would choose Power Up by a long-shot. Oh, and the music. Once again, this CD has an enjoyable and bouncy atmosphere, it's not only really good music, but it's fun to listen to. Power Up is no exception. So, once again, Spaceship Zero delivers on all fronts. *smilies!* I love their music!! BTL Drive: Ah, this is like the numerous collections of weird sounds and dialouge from old B-movies that the 'Thickets like to pass off as a song. ONLY THIS IS BETTER!!! It's got this really cool classic weird soundy music feeling to it, and it's actually got music, just surrounded by lazer sounds and such. Obviously, no lyrics but classic movie sounds and dialouge, but this is still fun to listen to. A triumph, indeed. Frogstar: THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SONGS!!!! it's just so good, the lyrics make less than no sense, but the song is INCREDIBLE!!! I bounce, I tap, I sing along, it's everything that a good song should be!! If I'm ever fortunate enough to see them in concert, and they don't play this, I'm going to cry until I am a withered and tortured mass of flesh! It's THAT good!!! *bouncy singy tappy bounce!!!* Ah, I'm singing along at the top of my lungs, a rare site indeed!! "We gave our souls, for a million writhing tadpoles, so fair, so proud, tucked in their magellenic cloud!!!" I think it's about these spacefrogs, trying to defend their children from evil barnacles, and they know that the barnacles will kill them, but they want to at least get the children to Frogstar, probably a near-by planet! Action packed!! If there is a single bad song on this CD, this makes up for it ten, nay, hundred-fold!! SUCH awesomeness has rarely been seen before!! The Math Song: Just when I thought it was safe to go back to Normal Benjy, the Math Song hits me!! It's so great!! I can't even type out the lyrics, the song is just them singing a HUGE formula!! and I love it!! This is only slightly less good than Frogstar, because barely anything can stand on equal ground with Frogstar. This is a GREAT song, and so far, Spaceship Zero is a great album. But, how long can it hold out!??!?! Dieses Ist Unverschamtheit: Gah, the onslaught of good songs never ends!!! Now, this song is almost entirely in German, so I have little clue what they're saying, but Gah, it's still so good!!! I thought it was nearly impossible to make music with German lyrics into an extremely listenable song, but they did it!! And it might not have even been that hard!! This song is just Awesome!! When will the onslaught of greatness end!? WHEN!?!?! Oblivion: *smilies!!* This is a very cute little song. It's not as fantastic as the last few, but it's SO cute *smilies!!*. There are no lyrics, but it sounds like a space-lullaby. I dearly love this song *smilies!!*. It's just so nice, and cute, and gentle, and wonderful. Not as great as the last few, but it's still REALLY good, and it's irrisistalby cute! *smilies!* The Chosen One: This is a really weird song, but it's still pretty catchy. Basically it's just a mix of weird little lines, which is completely fine by me. I don't think it has much of a story to tell, but I like weird stuff, so the lyrics are fine in my book *smilies!* And the music is REALLY catchy. It's got some really good drum work, and I haven't said it, but I'm very fond of the singer's voice *smilies!* This might not be an earth-shaking song like my beloved Frogstar, but it's still pretty really good *smilies!!* I like collages of weird stuff *wigglement*. Slave Ship: I reviewed this song in my last entry. It's still pretty good the second time around. Yay! Requiem for a Clone Hunter: This is their usual collage of quotes and sounds, but ONCE AGAIN, like BTL Drive, this has a really catchy beat, and it's HIGHLY listenable-to. I'm very fond of this, it's got this hard sound to it, and the sound clips are eerie and foreboding. This might be a collage, but it's a REALLY good collage at that. Fine, fine work on their part. Kablam!: Yay for catchy songs!! *wigglies! Rhythmic wigglement, at that!!* This song is like, incredicatchy (TM). It's so bouncy, and fun, and good!! And there was much goodement to be had!! Wee!!!! So, it's about a really big explosiony device, and the singer is like, "you don't scare me, 'cause I'm awesome!" And there was much cheerement to be had on my part. Yesh, it's an Awesome song *smilies!* it's just SO wiggleable!! *wiggles in sheer happiness* Sounds of Tinaldos: This song reminds me of From Beyond, a really good Lovecraft story about alien creatures that lurk on Earth with us, just in a different... dimension, sorta. It's really, really, really, really great. And you know what, this song is AWESOME!! It's like all the goodness of Lovecraftian terrors and mysteries of alien creatures, COMBINED with music that makes Kablam! jealous!! It's so fantastic!! It's singalongable, wiggleable, bounceable, and everything that makes a song GREAT!!! I am a happy little bug!! *bouncy wigglement!!!!* End Credits~Spaceship Zero: Agh, this song is so goooooood!!! Why does it have to be so good???? Because the 'Thickets did it!! I'm thumping my head up and down, for pete's sake!! it's THAT awesome!! Basically, it's like a hard techno rendition of Oblivion, so it loses the cute lullaby quality, in favour of INDUSTRIAL MIGHT. Well, Industrial/Techno mightiness. But it's still super-Great!!! *rhythmic wigglement!!* So goood!!!! Overall: This CD is SO FRIGGIN' GOOD. There isn't a SINGLE unlistenable song, it gets the blood flowing, it's fun, it's EVERYTHING that a CD should be!! And more!! I dearly love it, it's just SO AMAZING!! I would go over into like 20,000 out of 5 Benjies, but I don't want to abuse the system TOO much, so this gets an unjust 5 out of 5 Benjies. So, not much to talk about, life-wise. I'm still pretty lonely, but I've been cheered up in intervals by such small things, like beating Wolfenstein and listening to Spaceship Zero. It's sort of odd, because I'll go through constant moodswings throughout the day, from these periods where I'm really depressed, to these lighthearted periods, like right now, after Spaceship Zero. Such oddness. I think I did well on my final today, I hope so, at any rate.. If a traveler abroad reads this while they are gone, know that I'm thinking of you always *smilies*. Tomorrow, you will be treated to Eternal Cowboy and Klaha's Musical Renditionings of Happiness. Stay tuned, 'cause it pleases me when people read my blog! Monday, January 12, 2004 11:15 p.m. previews! Finals tomorrow!!!! *hot steely death* And so tomorrow night, anyone who reads this will be treated to reviews of Spaceship Zero, an untitled Acoustic EP from Against Me! and maybe Naked Lunch. If the movie review doesn't happen tomorrow, it will be on Wednesday evening. WISH ME LUCK!!! *dies* Monday, January 12, 2004 Anyway, positive news from the Front. Most of Loneliness' forces have been temporarily driven back by a coalition of sources, only a few small remanants remain in raiding missions. It is uncertain when Loneliness will attack again. Now, for your viewing pleasure, I present a fish: <*)))-< Sunday, January 11, 2004 05:02 p.m. a world of stuff so, Thursday was really nice, Friday was nice as well, and Saturday was incredibly mixed. The good news of it was that I saw Big Fish, and I have never cried that much during a movie before. My eyes were watery 5 times, I felt tears trickling down my face 2 times, and I was sobbing for most of the last 10 minutes of the movie. Yeah, sobbing. Dave described it very well, "You were dissolving next to me. It made me uncomfortable." here's a "formal" review of Big Fish, followed by someodd number of Against Me! and/or Darkest of the Hillside Thickets reviews: Big Fish: I don't think I've ever seen a movie that has moved me as much as this one did. But I'll get to that, again, later. Big Fish is the story of William Bloom, and his father, Edward Bloom. Basically, Will doesn't know anything about his father's life, only a vast mythology of tall and outlandish tales that he believes are completely false. After being embarrased at his wedding, Will cuts off communication with his father and moves to Paris with his wife. Someodd years later, Edward is dying and William returns to see his father one last time, and to try to learn something true about the mysterious Edward Bloom. Many of his stories are visualised while William remembers them and while Edward tells them, but what's wonderful is that the fantastic settings and characters don't overwhelm the rest of the movie. I don't want to talk about any more, just because whoever's reading this should really go see it. It's the best movie I've seen since.... well, a really long time. It's also possibly the only movie that I can say was BETTER than the book. It was a really beautiful book, but I wasn't SOBBING in the end. I reiterate, I started sobbing in the last 10-15 minutes. I'm pretty sure I've never seen a movie that made me sob, and very, very, VERY few have pushed me past tearie eyes. If you're reading this, do yourself a favour, and go see it. If you don't like it, I'll even double what you payed to see the movie. This is DEFINETLY one of my favourite movies that I've seen. I guess if I had to describe it in one word, that world would be superincredifontifantasticulis. 85 billion out of 5 Benjies. The Darkest of the Hillside Thickets: Cthulhu Strikes Back: my CD reviews will be track-by-track, with a little overview at the end, so bear with me. Goin' Down to Dunwich: This song is about the narrator going to the fabled Dunwich of Lovecraftianology, knowing that he'll probably never return. He says some pretty cute lines about Lovecraftian horrors, such as "Don't open that door, it's an encasement," "what did the Arab say?(a reference to Abdul Alahazred, the author of the Necronomicon)" and "Slime on the Kitchen Floor, coming from the basement." Obviously, to someone who doesn't read any of Howie's works, this would make no sense. The music is alright, fitting the mood, but nothing really special or hummable. All in all, a pretty decent song. Ogdru Jahad: by far, this is one of my favourite DotHT songs. It's about a celestial 7-bodied dragon who will come to earth to destroy it eventually. It's just really good stuff. And it's based on Hellboy, which is an added incentive. This is one of their best songs, in my opinion. REALLY, REALLY great stuff *wigglies!!!* Shoggoths Away: This is one of their most defining songs, yet it's not one of my favourites. The lyrics are GREAT! *smilies!!*. It's about a military man doing patrols over Antarctica, when he finds a few shoggoths and kidnaps them. When noone in civilization wants his "mindless iridescent protoplasms" he decides to drop them all over the world, probably causing unheard-of destruction. What I don't like too much is the music, which is just sorta okay. It's dissapointing because the lyrics are fantastic, but the music is just alright. All in all, a viciously decent song. Unstoppable: I'm very fond of this song *smile* the chorus is sorta boring and really repetitive, but the music is really good. And they have a quazi-chorus thing going, and a pretty interesting dialouge quote, so that's good. The lyrics, aside from the chorus, are great *smile*. It's about a priest of the Old Ones yelling at a mere mortal for being too nosey, I think. Good fun for the entire family *smilies*. So, it's a really good song *smilies!*. Yig Snake Daddy: This song is like a parrallel to Shoggoths Away. The lyrics are WONDERFUL! they're so great, and funny, and weird, I love it! *smilies!!*. It's sorta about this group of party goers who decide to go party with Yig, the god and father of snakes. And although they almost die, and one of their friends goes insane, they have a really good time *smilies!!* Classic stuff. Problem is, I'm not really that fond of the music. It's decent, but not too great. So, sadly, the music drags this song down to the likes of Shoggoths Away, as in viciously decent. Hookworm: I really don't like this song too much. The music is sorta good, but the lyrics are gross *frowns*. The singer goes into detail about tracks that they leave in his fat, and worms coming out of his split knee, it makes me cringe. A pretty ungood song, in my opinion *frowns*. Wrath: not much to talk about here, it's a minute of jamming on a guitar. Pretty boring, but at least the guitar work is good. Rock Lords: CLASSIC!! this song makes up for Hookworm with its inherent awesomeness!! it's about these huge rock monsters that can destroy our planet, but in reality it's about these great little toys from the 80's that transformed from monster into boulders, again and again. I still have a few, somewhere... aw, they were SO nifty!! *smilies!!!!* And the lyrics are great, the music is awesome, and there are DOOM sound clips!! This song is SOOO GREAT. just slighty under the unbelievable greatness of Odgru Jahad. Protein: the music is pretty good, and the lyrics are AWESOME! it's a really morbid song, about sacrifices to strange alien gods, and other such stuff, and it's really neat *smilies!*. I had heard a live of this originally, and I hated it, but this is MUCH better. and there's a great guitar solo in the middle, really cool stuff. So, this is a pretty good song *smilies!*. HVW: this is a weird "song". I put song in quotes, because there really isn't much music to be had. They just sorta repeat "Howard vs. Willy" again and again. I think Howard refers to Howard Phillip Lovecraft, but I don't know what Willy is. I'm too confused to rate this song. Burrow Your Way to My Heart: this is a cute love story between a young lady and parasites. I like the music alot, and the lyrics are nice and sweet *smilies!*. I'm probably the only person in the world who thinks this is a nice song.. basically she likes the company of parasites and insects in general, so she lets them feast on her. Actually, this isn't a sweet song at all! it's a clever deception to trick people like me! In fact, it's pretty gross. if you really think about it, it's revolting. So, this is like the polar opposite of Shoggoths Away, in that the music is really good, but the lyrics are bad. So, like that song, it's only viciously decent. Sloth: Just like Wrath, but not even as good. This is a warm cup of boring, with a side-order of Thankgodit'sshort. Worship Me Like a God: This is a song about a horrible beast that is summoned from its resting place to ravage Earth. What I like about it is that it's in the perspective of the monster *smilies!*. Unfortunately, parts of the lyrics make no sense, such as: "Ionize, Disinfect, Jackques Cousteau, Smoothly Softy." I'm not too fond of the music, because it's INCREDIBLY repetative. But, it's listenable to, and the lyrics are pretty good, so it's viciously decent. Cthulhu Dreams: Hrm. I don't know what to make of this song. It's like an ingenious blend of suck and good. For most of the song, there is this creepy vibe going with the music. But, there are no lyrics, only dialouge clips from old B-movies. What I don't like about it is that the spooky mood builds to a crescendo of SUCK. What makes it worse is that it's, like, 7 minutes long *eyeroll*. I really don't know what to make of this song, the best way to describe it really is a clever blend of good and suck. Gluttony: Just like Wrath. I mean, JUST LIKE WRATH. What the hell are they trying to pull on me!??! Slave Ship: REALLY GOOD STUFF! I love the music, and the lyrics are poignant, in a way. It talks about the horribleness of slavery, just in space. It's mildly depressing, and good. Definetly one of their better songs, the music is incredibly catchy, and it has a serious message, unlike.... all of their songs. Their description of space in this is really neat, poetic, beautiful, all of that wonderful stuff. A Darkest of the Hillside Thickets masterpiece, without a doubt. House of Clocks: This and Odgru Jahad are definetly my favourite songs on this album. This is really fun stuff. The music is SO catchy, the sorta stuff that makes you bounce in your chair *bouncy bounce*. I have no idea what the song is about, and I like it that way. It's really weird... the refrain is "The clocks are the main thing, and they'll start reversing, The clocks are the main thing, and they'll start reversing, and then the dead are getting up." This does make sense, but in conjunction with everything else in the song... *confused* Still, it's really, really, really neat stuff *smilies!!* Overall: This is a really mixed CD. I absolutely love some of the songs, there are alot of good ones, and there are alot of ones that I don't love. At all. And then there's Wrath, Sloth, and Gluttony, which I would swear are just pointless filler-songs, BY THEMSELVES. Secretly, these are the main riffs in Unstoppable, which if looked at from the outside, is really nifty, 'Cause it's saying that the Unstoppable thing is, in fact, Unstoppable, because he moves into the rest of the CD. Unstoppable is just THAT awesome. The songs that are good are, like, REALLY good, and the concept of their music is so WONDERFULLY odd. 4.3 out of 5 Benjies. Against Me!: Disco Before the Breakdown EP: The Disco Before the Breakdown: This is one of my favourite Against Me! songs, by FAR. The music is just... gorgeous. I find it to be moving, when the horns start, and the vocalist starts screaming, it's the sort of music that makes my heart jump. It's a really depressing song, about a person who loves another person, but they can't be together because they will be harassed. It's really saddening, which makes it good, just not happy. And the singer screams, but he screams WELL. it adds to the feeling of the music. This is a fantastic song, from all corners. If I was grading this song alone, it would be 5 out of 5 Benjies. Tonight We're Gonna Give it 35%: The music is really good, and the lyrics are even more depressing than Disco (...). It's a really sad song; although I see multiple things the lyrics might mean, they're all sad. The music is not nearly as good as Disco, but it REALLY fits the music, so it's still good. It's definetly not the sort of thing I would listen to regularly, the music is filled with rage, and again, it's REALLY sad. Which calls me to a tangent. Big Fish made me cry because it was BEAUTIFUL. It's really such a wonderful ending, it's so nice and sweet! It's really.. just.. wonderful. Big Fish doesn't need makeup words, it is the EPITOME of wonderful. The difference is that at the end of Big Fish, I felt wonderful, the tears were those happy sort-of tears. This song didn't make me cry, but it makes me feel sad. So, it's good, but not the sort of good that I desire. Beginning in an Ending: this should be a sad song, but it doesn't feel as sad as Tonight (...). it just seems distant, whereas Tonight is something I can sorta relate to. So, Beginning seems distant, and thus it's not as stirring as Tonight. The music is pretty good, but not NEARLY as good as Disco. So, this song is like a marriage between Tonight and Disco. I LOVE the music of Disco, but I can't relate to the meaning of it, whereas the music of Tonight is alright, but the lyrics are incredibly depressing. Beginning has the distant meaning of Disco, and the alrightish music of Tonight. It doesn't suck, but it's not terribly good. Overall: Disco is AWESOME, Tonight is pretty good, and Beginning is just sorta alright. SO, seeing that Tonight is in the middle, this EP gets the general score of that song. I think I'll listen to Disco and Beginning MUCH more often than Tonight though, because tonight is ridiculously depressing. this gets about 3.9 out of 5 Benjies. In conclusion, I unwittingly reviewed these things in order of likeability. Big Fish is just.. SO INCREDIBLY NICE. I am at a loss of words to describe how happy and nice and wonderful that movie is. Go see it, 'cause it's really nice. Darkest of the Hillside Thickets are incredibly fun. They're music is just silly and enjoyable. Against Me! is really, really good, but they are not thaaaat enjoyable in this particular EP. I enjoyed Disco, but the crappy feelings that Tonight brought about sorta brought that down. Still, Disco is a really, really, really good song. So yeah, there you go. Tune in tomorrow for Spaceship Zero, Crime, and maybe either Naked Lunch or Cabinet of Dr. Caligari. Or, if you're really good boys and girls, Black Mask and/or Devil's Backbone. Oh yeah, and go see Big Fish!!! Tuesday, January 6, 2004 11:32 p.m. meh Loneliness' 1st Company is attacking Fortress Benjy in successive raids, while Loneliness' larger 2nd Company is sieging the area. The 3rd Company is sending small raiding bands to the fortress, while it saves up a massive collection of troops and weaponry to lay waste. After the wasting is layed, if all goes well, Fortress Benjy will heal itself, beating off regular raiding missions from various areas. In other news, education is good, but school is terrible. Sunday, January 4, 2004 05:47 p.m. ^________^ I would make a lengthy blog, but I have to study, so no dice. Today is the last day of Christmas Break, and it's been absolutely wonderful. I cannot remember a stretch of time that I've been this happy without letup since a long, long, looooong time ago. Thank you, my friends, for all being wonderful people ^_____^. Tomorrow, stuff will go downhill, but not really thaaaaat bad, 'cause school starts but I'll still be able to be with a very special person ^_____________^. But, then, on Saturday, T_T. But at least there's 'till Saturday *happy happy*. Now, back to das Studieren!!! Sunday, December 28, 2003 now.. lazeeee.... yeah, I haven't blogged in awhile. I don't have much to talk about, because all the interesting stuff is personal, and I'm afraid of people reading this and picking up personal things, so yeah... *smilies!* Christmas break has been great. A very close friend of mine came home, and it's been really, really nice *smilies!!*. another good friend of mine was POed about the wrapping job I gave his gift *smilies*. It was in good spirits, though. So, where to start... *thinkies* Christmas Eve was painful. Lots of fighting on the part of my family with a silent me in between. But, I went home and was able to spend time with a very special person, so all was good *smilies*. I got some nifty stuff on Christmas, mainly these little chibi Army of Darkness figures!! *acts like a child*. I got a bunch of bubble gum and DVDs, so I'm a very happy little bug *wigglies!*. Oh, and a broad-sword. Later, I gave my friends their gifts, and I think they were liked *smilies*. And I got Klaha singing about being a stubby penguin, which proves God exists and wants us to be happy *smilies*. We then watched Evil Dead II, which is the PINNACLE or APEX of cinema. All films before were building up to it, and all films after it are in a slow, tragic decline. Before the viewing of Evil Dead II though, there was much paella to be had, which meant that all was good in the universe. Oh, the day before I recieved buck-eyes from a friend, which are like a meal in one, so I was very happy. Later that evening, one of my friends left, and I watched some quality cinema with the other friend, who had to strain his muscles to open his gift. yay for convoluted story telling! if you don't understand what I'm talking about, you're in the majority of living creatures. The next day, there was good tea to be had, and a viewing of Pirates of the Carribean. My favourite character is still Barbossa, but that doesn't mean that I don't like Captain Sparrow. Jack Sparrow is infinetly cooler, but Barbossa dressed better, and I felt bad for him, so he's my favourite. And I had good tea *smilies*. Then, other stuff happened, and I hung out. Then, more other stuff happened, and I hung out AND swung on a swing-set. Life is good. Wednesday, December 17, 2003 09:31 p.m. ah, life is good Hrm.. well, it appears that a law of Physics has been violated. In the book of Physics, psalm 60:4, page number 9,847, it clearly states the Benjy Day Theorem as follows: "On a day of schoolworking, Benjy Blanco cannot have two days in a row of goodness, but only one, followed punctually by a bad day." What is strange is that BOTH TODAY AND TUESDAY WERE GOOD DAYS. I'm waiting for the sun to turn to sack cloth and the rivers to run red with blood, but so far, my faucets aren't spraying life juice at me. So I think I've made a scientific breakthrough, unless I die within the night. So anyway, yesterday: AWESOME. Japanese was amusing as usual, in English we read about Achilles dragging Hector's lifeless corpse around the city of Troy while I dreamt of Sean Bean playing Odysseus (Sean Bean=the handsome), in Painting and Drawing Skeel wasn't there and I started a really nifty project, freemods were freemods, in Schlacter we watched a ridiculously cheesy video about Machiavelli (yay for made-for-education movie plot devices!), Algebra II was Algebra II (aka-SUCKS), and in Chemistry we got to play around with chemicals, so I was happy *smilies* But, it just got better from there. I went home and slept for 2 hours in preparation for my evening. Later, Dave, Sekhar and I departed at 10:00 to see the Midnight showing of Return of the King. We got really good seats *smilies*. And the crowd was WONDERFUL, they were MST3K'ing up the commercials and the trailers before the movie, and there were people dressed up! Most were dressed for the movie, though there was one Hamburglar and one guy with a lightsaber, but they were dressed nonetheless!! And I was happy because Dave and I talked for 45 minutes to someone we had never seen before about crappy movies and Atari *smilies*. I was HIGHLY dissapointed though, because they didn't show the Hellboy trailer OR the Spiderman II trailer, both of which I have seen, but I REALLY wanted to see on the Big Screen.. Carmike sucks *frowns*. And then the lights dimmed, and the movie started, and the audience shut up. Return of the King~~ Hrm.. I've been thinking about the movie all day, and I think I have an opinion firmly set. It is truly a fantastic and epic movie, though it is definetly not perfect, and I would hardly call it the best movie ever made. In my opinion, it forms a fantastic trilogy between Fellowship and The Two Towers, but it does not surpass them perse. Granted the battles are more intense than The Two Towers, and it offers more food-for-thought than Fellowship, but in comparison to Fellowship, I think it falls behind. The Fellowship of the Rings was my favourite of the three movies. Granted there was little action, but the heart of the movie was solid drama. Return of the King was very, very good, but it just seems to lack the wonderment that Fellowship gave. It might have had more drama and more moving things in it, and the battles might have been infinetly more intense, but it just didn't have something that The Fellowship did. It kinda lacked the feeling of wonder and fantasy, because everything had been seen before in Fellowship and Towers, just not as intense. Actually, I didn't like Towers, but that's beside the point. Return of the King is an absolutely fantastic movie. It seems like I have a negative opinion on it, but the truth of the matter is that it is so much easier for me to talk about the things I didn't like over the things that I loved. If I were to mention all the things that I loved about the movie, this entry would be SO MUCH LONGER. Granted some of the pacing was weird, they left out some of my favourite parts in the book, and the computer effects SOMETIMES lagged, overall it was an absolutely fantastic film. Problem is, I will not see this again at least until the Extended comes out. IT IS 3 AND A HALF HOURS LONG!!! I have better things to do with my time, and I fear that my opinion of it would decrease in a second and subsequent viewings. The Lord of the Rings movies make an utterly fantastic trilogy, but I'll be honest about my feelings, after the first few viewings of Fellowship, I became bored with it and it dragged on, and on, and on.. Two Towers didn't even make it past the second viewing without heavy dragging. So, although these are absolutely incredible movies, would you watch Citizen Kane for 11 hours straight? I hope not.. So, long and the short, Return of the King is an excellent ending to The Lord of the Rings, and although it isn't perfect, it is the best new film that I've seen this year, and it gets so many things right that the sheer awesomeness overshadows the little flaws. I don't think it will be the best movie I see all year though, seeing that I'm not all that attached to the books. I think they were great, GREAT books, but not something to drool over and devote my life to learning Elvish or something inane like that. No, I'm more excited about Troy, Spider-man II, Hellboy, and kinda The Punisher. I would be more excited about The Punisher, but.. eh, it looks like they're following in Dolph Ludrgren's footsteps. *Sighs* here's to hoping. But I digress. Return of the King? 4.91 out of 5 Benjies So, after the movie, Dave, Sekhar and I hung out in the parking lot at 4 in the morning while it was snowing. There was noone there, I felt so free, it was really very nice. So we screamed and did childish stuff *smilies*. It was the best day since Friday of Thanksgiving break *smilies*. So my dad came, and I went home, and I slept for an hour *smilies* Then I went to school!! Having injested 30 ounces of pure caffeinated coffee, I was set for the day. Japanese was, as usual, very amusing, English was good (more thinking of Sean Bean as Odysseus in Troy.. *heart is aflutter*), Painting and Drawing+no Skeel=good, Freemods were, once again, freemods, we watched another cheesy video in History, Algebra II was.. Algebra II, and then I had 4 mods in the art room to work on my new project. *Smilies* I like it alot, it's neat. So, basically, school was GREAT today *smilies!* Then I came home, talked to someone I care alot about on AIM, then slept from 5:30 to 8:30. Today was Great *smilies*. Sunday, December 14, 2003 *head explodes* transmitting message.. I have nothing to talk about, so time to rant! So, yeah. Let the ranting commence. Mhm. Wait, it just occured to me that I have nothing to talk about. Yeeeaaah... hrm. I had a weekend; it was okay. Not very good, not that bad, either. This morning wasn't too great, 'cause I had to shovel 3 DRIVEWAYS. But, last night was really good, because I made significant progress on Project X *shiiifty eyes...* And so, yeah. Now, I'm memorizing element ions, which isn't too bad because I have to memorize Polyatomic ions later, which will kill me. And I have flashcards to prepare myself *smilies!* But.. I have a huge lab and a vocab test due on Friday, so my week won't be too hot, to say the least. Hopefully I'll be able to juggle schoolwork and working on Project X, 'cause if I can't, I'm royally screwed. Over and out. Monday, December 8, 2003 hair: lookin' goood comment, pleeeeeeeeze... Alright, I'm expecting at the most one comment for this, but if you're passing by, please email me with something, I'm lonely and starved for comments *emaciated*. 1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 2. Am I lovable? 3. How long have you known me? 4. When and how did we first meet? 5. What was your first impression? 6. Do you still think that way about me now? 7. What do you think my weakness is? 8. Do you think I'll get married? 9. What makes me happy? 10. What makes me sad? 11. What reminds you of me? 12. If you could give me anything what would it be? 13. How well do you know me? 14. When's the last time you saw me? 15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 16. Do you think I could kill someone? 17. Describe me in one word. 18. Do you think our friendship (if we have a friendship) is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? 19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? 20. Are you going to put this on your blog (if you have one) and see what I say about you? In the vein of my prince's blog; BONUS: What animal would you compare me to and why? Or if you don't have enough time, forget the why part.(Why do I ask this? Because I like animals *smilies!*) Saturday, December 6, 2003 sleeepy.. quick lil' thingie well, everyone else was doing it.. and I strongly support feminism when it's for the goal of equal rights, but if it's for the goal of superior rights, that's mean.. you are steelblue #4682B4 Your dominant hues are cyan and blue. You like people and enjoy making friends. You're conservative and like to make sure things make sense before you step into them, especially in relationships. You are curious but respected for your opinions by people who you sometimes wouldn't even suspect. Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it. Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up. the spacefem.com html color quiz Thursday, December 4, 2003 08:12 p.m. Gojira!! just so you all remember, I LOVE YOU ALL!!! *fluffies!!* GO YOU! YOUR EBIRA! weight: 23,000 tons height: 50 meters origin: Lechi Island レッチ島近海 weapon(s): Claws, natural swimmer defeats: Defeated by Godzilla Ebira lurks in the oceans around Japan, striking during the storms. Which Godzilla monster are you? brought to you by Quizilla You are: Mothra! You are emotional and deep in thought. You have strong opinions and care greatly about friends, family and issues concerning your environment and community. Mostly a peace lover, however when you have to, you kick ass with intelligence and strategy. Which Godzilla movie monster are you? brought to you by Quizilla You are Hedorah, the Smog Monster! You fly around leaving a cloud of smog in the air, and that's about it. Which Godzilla Monster Are You? brought to you by Quizilla You are Mogegoji, first seen in 1994. You are the gruff loner who has few friends and many enimies. You did not ask for these problems, but your logic of "violence solves everything" doesn't help. You trust very few people, and there are probably only 4 or fewer that you can open up to. You care for those few people very much, and would gladly slay anyone who would give them a hard time. You always feel lonely, and there is only one or a few people who can really make you feel good. Your life can be described as tragic. Which Godzilla are You? brought to you by Quizilla (I hardly consider my life tragic in any way or form, nor do I think violence solves everything, but the Godzilla picture was cute, so yay! *smilies*) Thursday, December 4, 2003 boreded!! because I love you all ^^ I have nothing to blog about, but I want to. This is the dilemna that I must face as a boring person who writes in a blog. Today happened. There you go. Seeing that I have nothing to blog about, I'll summarize the 4 things I want to work on now: Lobstericus the Mighty, The Adventures of Hampstercles, Doc Power, and The Law; just because I love you. Lobstericus the Mighty: Hrm.. I am not quite sure what this will be about. I had the idea todayish of Lobstericus being a man-sized lobster, and doing Robin Hood-esque things on the side of sea-life, like raiding Wholeys corporate bases and clawing mean people up. He lives in an undersea cave, filled with old-timey computers, the ones with the spools of tape that spin around all the time. Sometimes he'll be aided by other denizens of the deep, but often he'll just have to duke out HOT STEELY SEA-MONSTER JUSTICE to the crappy humans. I like the idea of him being the equivalent of Zorro or Robin Hood, just instead of having a sword or arrows, he'll have claws, and um.. lobster powers. Then again, this is subject to change, seeing that the first thing I thought of was the name, Lobstericus. But, one has to admit, Lobstericus is a pretty cool name, right? The Adventures of Hampstercles: awhile ago, I wrote a story called "Theseus and Minnie," which concerned the adventures of a mouse named Theseus who was pitted against the horrible monstrosity of a snake simply known as "Minnie." I was greatly pleased with this story, because it captured the feel of reading a myth, just more actiony and violent. So, trying to cash in on that wonderful idea, last yearish I tried to write a story called Mark and Cleo, which was a retelling of the tragic story of Mark Antony and Cleopatra, just with rabbits, and un-Shakespearian and thus better. Well, it sucked, I quickly grew tired of it, and deleted it. I didn't like my writing style for one thing, and the exposition was so ridiculously long that I just quit while I was ahead. *sadness* I didn't even get to introducing Auggie (Octavian or Augustus Caesar), the jackalope *frowns*. But I had new inspiration for a story when we started our Myth unit in English; I had read ahead and the book emphasised how incredibly awesome Hercules was, and I wanted to pay homage to one of the neatest fictional heroes ever. So, that was the birth of Hampstercles. Hampstercles is not only the hero of his people (hampsters, silly), but also the hero of many of the creatures living in Greece, which will be conviniently populated by animals, because people are jerks. When he fights monsters, he will not be fighting downsized versions of them, he's so awesome that he'll fight the FULL-SIZED monsters. When he strangles the snakes in his crib (he would be just a gross lump of pinkish flesh at this time), he strangles full-grown boa constrictors, not earthworms or something silly like that. When he fights the Thespian lion, he fights the Thespian lion, not an abnormally large chipmunk or a lobster wearing fur. So you get the idea, Hampstercles will kick much in the way of ass. I want this to be an epic story, I do not grow tired of projects unless they suck, so unless I screw this up royally, I want to have a large story near me. I just need to find a large period of time to start it, if I start small, there's a greater chance of screwing it up *frowns*. I want to not only present a fun story about a hampster kicking large quantities of ass, but also I want to experiment with representing a theme, something along the lines of how much a hero can suffer to do what he or she thinks is right. I've only represented a strong theme in one story, and even though I did well, that was much shorter than the epic I want to write. Mind you, I'm using epic comparing it to my terms, I don't plan on creating a 15-volume, 12,000 page EEEPIC. Still, I want it to be longer than my other short stories, but seeing that there's alot of information to cover, I don't think that will be hard. Just need to keep from screwing it up... I find myself thinking of epic battle-sequences between Hampstercles and the monsters; I'm really passionate about this, I just don't want to screw it up.. hrm. We'll see how this developes. Maybe I'll never start it, and just keep thinking about it, AKA pulling a Stew. We shall see... Doc Power: I don't really know much about this idea, but Dave and I had the crackdream of making an homage to classic pulpy comic books, and this is what came of it. He is Doc Power, Adventureologist. By day he is mild-mannered nuclear physicist(?) Steel Jones, but when he hears the call of an innocent in peril, he becomes Doc Power and rushes off to save the day! Powered by the direct hit with a nuclear bomb, and the heat of a thousand suns, Doc Power sets out to clean his fair city up from the slimes of evil and ignorance! enough with the cheese description. Basically, one day Steel Jones is studying effects of nuclear radiation from a nearby testing grounds on the rainforest, when he is hit straight on by a nuclear bomb that traveled stray from the aformentioned testing area. Rather then melting him and destroying the forrest, somehow the energy is absorbed by his body, giving him strange powers. He doesn't realize this at first, but keeping the blast a secret and returning to his lab, he slowly realizes that he has amazing powers (which I haven't really thought of yet.. I'm thinking super speed and super-agility, combined with other nucleary things), and so he puts on a special suit he made in his laboratory, and sets out to use his powers for good. I know it's cheesy and stereotypical, but that's really the point. I love that classic schlocky pulp, and if I write this, I want to capture as much of it as possible. I need to read some Doctor Savage, classic Captain America, and some Madman (it's supposed to be wonderfully pulpy) for reference material. Note: this will probably not happen for a long, long time, that's even if it happens. It was a crackdream, and although it would be neat, I've never written a comic-script before, so that would be a challenge that I don't think I have time for, right now at any rate. And I would definetly not illustrate a damn thing, BECAUSE I SUCK AT DRAWING. So there you go, you read that whole spiel for no reason. Hahahahahaha. The Law: A long, long time ago, I created a superhero after an action figure that I had, and because the action figure had a business suit on, I named him Lawyer Man. Now with my old and wise eyes, I've realized that this was probably one of the dumber things that I've done as a child. But, because of my strong taste for nostalgia, I've had a revitalization of Lawyer Man, now simply and betterly known as the Law. The Law's true name is up for grabs right now, but it will probably be something that's quick off the tongue, without connotations of awesomeness like Steel Jones. Because that's who he is; a member of the upper-middle class, he's not a scientist, he's not a bazillionare, he's a lawyer, with a wife, a daughter, not some amazingly awesome person with every qualification to be a hero. He's not very tired of his job, he doesn't like his wealthy obnoxious boss, and he loves his wife and daughter very much, even though the latter often fights with him, and claims that she doesn't have any freedom. One day though, his quiet, gentle life is destroyed when he has to defend a client who has been horribly mutated by radiation. Basically, our unheroedyethero wins the case, but as his mutated and monsteresque client is carried away, the flashing of the cameras scares it, and it bites the arm of the preLaw. he is rushed to the hospital, and the wound is cleaned, but after he returns home, during the night he grows a prehensile tail. Horrified by his new mutation, he quickly tries to cover it up, and for a few days, it works. But, one day in the apartment complex that he lives in, he hears one of his neighbors screaming late at night while he shaves his tail and ponders getting it removed. So he rushes over, and finds that a thug has broken in through the window, and is strangling his geriatric neighbor. Seeing that he works out with frequency and keeps his body in good shape, he quickly dispels of the thug. But, the thug breaks the light in the room, and as our nearhero stumbles around the room looking for the thief, the criminal tries to kill him, but is stopped by the prehensile tail, acting on instinct, like it had a mind of its own. Quickly sensing the evildoer near, he punches the villain in the face, bleedinating his knuckles, but succesfully subduing the villain. He then helps up the thankful old man, who has not seen the tail, due to the broken ceiling light. So, our almosthero tucks in his tail, and calls the police for his neighbor, and the thief is arrested as he screams about aliens in the apartment complex. As the Law returns home, he thinks about what he did, and realizes that he enjoyed it. After dismissing this as risky behaviour, he returns to the cycle of his life. But, the enjoyment of it before the crimefighting happened is gone, now his life seems dull and flavourless. So, after a week of boredom and mild depression, he makes a costume out of his daughter's boots, a modified skimask, a wig, white contacts, customized casual clothing, dishgloves spraypainted black, and one of his wife's stockings over his tail, and sets out into the city to fight evildoers. He might bumble with some frequency, he might run into strange and abhorred villains, and he might have trouble explaining his tail to his daughter and wife, but whenever he hears or sees bad stuff happening, he'll try his best to stop it without screwing up. The Law, in my eyes, is what I would want to be if I was a superhero, possibly minus the prehensile tail... possibly. He tries to do what's right with what he has, he's not afraid of getting folded, spindled, or mutilated, and on top of all of this, he still leads a pretty normal and enjoyable life, in most cases. After a while of going out at night to fight crime, and after seeing lots of bad and unfair stuff happen, he begins to appreciate the crime fighting because of the goodness more than the feeling it gives him, he metamorphates into a crime fighter for good, not for a rush of adrenaline. Like Doc Powe, this will probably not happen, for the same reasons. I do not have ridiculous aspirations of writing comic books, and unlike short stories, one needs to illustrate comic books... I like lobsters and hampsters more than radiation and prehensile tails, so if anything gets done first, it's going to be either Lobstericus or Hampstercles. Eh, I've written alot, so villain descriptions can wait until later. Because like I said, I love you all ^________________^ . Wednesday, December 3, 2003 >< uncomfortable... *whiiiine* bah, the house is really hot and dry; the computer room is, at any rate. *frowns* my lips are really chapped, they split today *unhappy*. and my hair is heating up my facial skin, making me more uncomfortable *frownser*. I don't want to go upstairs to get my hairbands to pull my hair back, because I'm grumpy and my lips are chapped *frowns*. and there's an eyelash in my eye *frownsest*. Oh, and I feel like I waste the time of those I care about *frownsiestness*. AND I had a bad dream last night, I don't want to talk about it or think about it *frownsiester*. Oh, I forgot; I'm horrifically ugly *frownsiestestnessity*. So, in short, WHINE BITCH MOOOOAAAAN!!!!!!!!!! now that that's off my chest, onto the good things!! .......... *opens the window* I'm really thinking about starting Hampstercles; I'm bored and the story of Hercules is fascinating, and I want to do it justice.. with Hampsters. And probably lobsters. Or mebbe I'll write my own hero tale, revolving around Lobstericus. So many options... I would also like to teach myself how to draw hampsters and lobsters well, because I like hampsters and lobsters. Hrm, while I'm at it, maybe I can teach myself to DRAW. I finished a chibi-Hellboy painting today; I like it.. probably noone else will, but I like it... *sadness*. I've been blogging less because I've been working more and more, I have 3 big tests on Friday, Monday, and Tuesday... *frowns* I hate my life and want to die... but seriously, if you're one of those strange folk who read this and miss my frequent blogging, I'm not giving up, I'm just working harder... I need to do something other than schoolwork *frowns* I feel terribly idle.. I want to socialize more, I grew used to it quickly over Thanksgiving, and I feel like a lonely little bug again.. but enough with the complaining *smack bleeds*. I have all these nifty painting and drawing ideas, I just need to find time to teach myself to draw, prefferably with books seeing that complete self-teaching seems impossible for me to do, at any rate.. Just need to find something I'm good at, or a style that doesn't involve chibis... ah, such ponderations. So my worklist is: The Adventures of Hampstercles, Lobstericus the Mighty, Doc Power, and The Law. If you're really curious about any of these, you can ask me about them. Though, if you don't have masochistic tendencies, I wouldn't bother, because I could rant about these for hours, and hours, and hours... I need to rant with Der Blauhaarig Ein soonish, I miss healthy doses of madness... Thursday, November 27, 2003 03:42 p.m. celebration!! HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! *gobble gobble* Tuesday, November 25, 2003 my time is almost up.. sick of working *vomityvoo* I've become so sick of working this past week, and I've been studying so hard for the Schlacter test, that I've decided to take a much-deserved break. I'm going to be raped viciously tomorrow on the test, so I might enjoy the time I have left, sans bleeding internal organs. 1. Do you shave? I am happy without a gomez mustache, thank you. 2. What do you shave? um... that's private information. If you're one of the two people who read this blog, you'll know. 3. Why? I would look pretty with no hair on my body except for my scalp, my eyelashes, and my eyebrows (if they were thinner...) *wishies*. 4. What colour is your razor? wouldn't YOU like to know?? 5. What size is your bed? um... I don't sleep on a bed.. *feels akward* 6. Do you like it? as long as there's a wall I can scrunch up to, a pillow named Bluey, and something to snuggle (a stuffie, you weirdos), then yes *smilies*. 7.you're going on a date for a walk around the lake then a coffee at a cafe. what do you wear FROM your closet? hrm... my black cargo pants, my chain wallet, my boots, a t-shirt, and either a black dress shirt or arm warmers. And mebbe some eye-liner, if I can steal out of the house without being caught... 8.Would you go naked in a bathtub with a naked old man/woman with each of you having a bar of soap and soap each other till the bars of soap run out for a million dollars? ... *eye twitch* my mind.. um, I wouldn't do that for all the money in the world.. I'm not too partial to money anyway.. and I like to keep digested substances in my stomach, and not in my esophagus and/or mouth and/or the surrounding area.. 9.if you woke up one morning and found out you were going to stay in the body you have now for the rest of your life, what would you think? my nose is going to stay like this forever!?!? DAMN YOU!!! 10. letter or e-mail? letters are romanticer *smilies* 11. If world war III broke out, what would you say? Aw shit.. 12. buttons or boxes? *confused* 13.which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? I don't want to put those *cough* 2 people at risk, so no dice, ya bastard. Why only 2 people? I'm antisocial.. *frownies* 14.what's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you off? skimpy or revealing clothing. 15. what's something a guy/girl will wear that'll turn you on? I don't like the phrase "turn on", but I'm quite fond of Victorian clothing, so there you go *smilies*. 16. what do you think of soulmates? I don't believe destiny sets out a single person that you're compatible with.. but it's nice to pretend I have a soulmate *feels fuzzy* 17.florida or cali? Florida has alligators and other such doomy things, so it wins. I'll just avoid.. people... I would rather stay in Pittsburgh out of those two places, though.. 18.is the world screwed? *waits for Ragnarok* 19.is cussing a neccesity in life? it's a really good way to relieve stress, but I'm not neccesarily fond of it.. though, sometimes the words can add humour to a situation. 20.what's an object you can't live without? my vital organs *feels witty* 21.can you live without the microwave? um, that's randome, but seeing that I eat salads alot, yep. 22.You have this uh, erotic dream about your friend of the opp. sex. how do you act and feel around that friend the next day? ... *more eye twitching* I don't think I dream like that.. and if I did, I would feel yucky until I forgot about it.. 23.would you rather be rich with 15 spoiled brats or just barely making it with a dog? I hate spoiled kids, and I lurves dogs, so there you go. 24. how's your schoolwork for you right now? I'm being mercillesly raped by a huge ape.. 25.what's something someone's done to make you hold a grudge against them? hrm, dislike people that I care alot about. 26.Favorite weather: either extremely snowy and extra cold, or mildly warm and extremely rainy. 27.what's one look trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? hrm.. I'm more fond of personalities than looks, but I am quite fond of long black hair.. 28.what's one personality trait that attracts you to a guy/girl? eh.. I like alot of personality traits, and there's a tie between a number of them. But if I must pick one, I would have to say loose connection with feminine stereotypes. 29.do you know what 143 means? um, one hundred and fourty three? *confused* 30.who's phone number are you hoping to get? I have all of the phone numbers that I want right now *smilies* 31.describe melancholy, if you don't know, then skip this question. everything magically gains grey shades. And not the oh-so-wonderful rainy grey, the sucky no-rain grey. 32.describe mellow: FREEDOM!!! *tries to hit the kriegaffe away* 33.do you beleive in ghosts? why or why not? Yes, because I just think they exist. I can't really explain it.. but they scare me, nonetheless *frownies* 34.what time did you sleep last night? mebbe 12:30? 35.which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now? *smilies* if you're a certain one of the 2 people who read this blog, you should know *happy happy* 36.is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? um, no. 37.would you rather be married in venice, italy, or honolulu, hawaii? I like Pittsburgh! *frownies* 38.would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life? I do like some sandwitches, but I lurves the pasta *smilies* 39.(guys) how would you feel if you gave a girl a flower?(girls) how would you feel if you got a flower from a guy?hrm, I would be really worried that they would laugh in my face.. but I'm a nutcase, so yeah. And I like getting flowers.. *sadness* 40.do you want to drop school? That's a joke, right? I'd like to work at somewhere other than the generic Burger Barn for most of my life.. 41.what do you think of the word, "no pain, no gain" ? *eye twitch* I'm going to smack you, you uneducated slug. I do agree with it for the most part, OFTEN gaining involves paining. Thank you Mr. T *bows* 42.what do you think of the quote "eyes are the passageways into the soul" ? *questioning looks* I've never heard that before.. Eh, often, as far as literature goes, it's true.. I think.. 43.What do you think of sleep? it's a love-hate relationship.. I like sleeping, but it wastes SO much time.. and I have better things to do *smilies* 44.if you had the chance to slow down your growth now and live to 500 years but it's like a 50 year old body by then, would you go for it? Hell no, that means there would be even less of a chance of becoming pretty some day.. I don't want to prolong my physical condition any longer than I have to.. 45.at one point in a girl/guy friendship will one them them like each other even if it's only for a little bit. true or false? Um, false. I don't know how to clarify my thoughts on this one, I just think friendships can resist bonds of affection, in that sense.. if two guys or two girls can keep from loving eachother in that sense during a friendship, I'm positive that a girl and a boy could do it. 46.Are you a procrastinator? Thank God that I'm not.. 47.waffles or pancakes? Pamcakes!! 48.how's your cereal in your bowl? I haven't had cereal in two months.. I like it just slightly soggy.. 49.what's an annoying trait about you? too many to list.. *sadness* 50.football or rugby? Rugby, because I lurves England.. 51. hat or visor? I want a bowler hat.. otherwise, my hair can be naked. 52.ice skating or rollerblading? I can't do either... *ashamed* I can kinda ice-skate, but I end up hurting my ankles.. *frowns* I need a cure for dumbassery 53.(guys) your gf has long beautiful hair which you love, she comes to school the next day with a short crop cut. what do you HONESTLY think? I would be suprised and a bit dissapointed at first, but seeing that I would love the person on the inside more than the condition of her hair follicles, I would get over it quickly. (girls) your bf has hair you love. he comes to school the next day with a shiny head. If I shaved my head, I would shoot myself, so there you go. 54.pizza or burgers? I <3 pizza with the strength of a thousand suns 55.what colour is your jacket? black and silky *smilies* 56.what's something you ALWAYS have on you? my vital organs? 57.what do you think of guys with nailpolishes? if I didn't bite my nails, I would paint them dark blue.. 58.do you stay in bed thinking or do you fall alseep in 5 seconds? Unless I'm exausted, I might think into late hours of the night.. 59.would you rather go to a boarding school, private school, or an all girls or guys school? Eh.. probably a private school, because I like uniforms *smilies* 60.there's a high school that'll be on a cruise ship and you have the opportunity to go. it's your last year at school. do you go for it? wait, there are high-schools on cruise ships? Hell no, seasickness and seamonsters.. 61. who do you want to take with you to the prom? I don't like dancing, but if I had to.. you know who *smilies* 62. your bf/gf gets drunk at a party. in their state of drunkness, they babble about that one time they fooled around with someone else while you were together. they wake up the next morning with a slight memory that did something stupid. what do you do? Eh... I would want to break up with them because they slept around and they got drunk with the full intention of boozing up for recreational purposes, but it would be difficult.. 63.is cyber sex considered cheating? *eye twitch* probably.. Gah, that's so gross *grimacy* 64.how do you react to change? I don' like change.. it scares me.. except for Ragnarok. 65.are you happy? I have mood swings; PMS is a bitch 66.favorite berries- apples? 67.what's one facial feature you'd like to change about yourself? MY NOSE!! 68.do you take a shower after a bath? *confused* bathing is gross for cleaning purposes.. your bodily filth just gets back into what you clean yourself with.. it's nice for relaxation though, one can't read in a shower (knows from experience) 69.what's colour's your towel? if I picked my towels, dark blue or black. But nooo, they have to be pastel green.. *uglied by the colour* 70.what do you think of knuckle cracking? it sounds cool and TUFF!!! 71.what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? I found a drawing of an old pet.. I cried and cried and cried.. I love all of my pets so much; they often rival lower human companions.. 72.chalk or crayons? chalk is messy and I'm clumsy, so coloured pencils all the way! *cheeries* 73.how's you happiness level right now? 0 (low)- 10 (high): bouncing around like a tennis ball on speed.. 74. coffee, tea, or me? I'm not familiar with any beverage named me, and it depends on what mood I'm in when it comes to coffee or tea, and likewise the seasonings of those drinks depend on my current feelings. 75.wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? YES. 76.who was the last person who complimented you? there's only one person who compliments me.. *sadness* but those compliments are GREATLY appreciated *feels fluffy* 77.what's wrong with your school? hrm.. lots of different things. It's a pretty nice place, but it doesn't fire teachers (The White Horse Rider), the building is built like a friggin' prison, and lots of the students there are meanies *frowns*. 78.do you know what an aphrodisiac is? something that has to do with love? 79.who do you wish you could kiss? one of the two people who read this blog *smilies* 80.movies at home on in a theater? depends on my mood and who I'm seeing the movies with. 81.wanna live in a castle? as long as there were no ghosts, no monsters, and plenty of secret passages, DEFINETLY *smilies!* 82.isn't gondola a cool word? I'm scared.. I want to say it is, but I've been set up like this too many times.. screw you and die! 83.what coat do you wear in the winter? I like the cold, so my arm warmers. Or a dress shirt. Or, if worst comes to worse, my black light fleecitie thing.. 84.(girls)what's something about guys you don't get? who's to say that I can't understand manly things myself? the stereotypical preoccupation with competition in almost anything... 85.(guys) what's something about girls you don't get? why they can be free to dress in black and grow out their hair, whilst I get criticized for it *frowns*. 86.who was better in rush hour/rush hour 2? I was forced to see 2, and it was the epitome of crappy cinema. AND NOT THE GOOD KIND OF CRAPPY... 87.it someone said you were hot, what would you think? that person wants to see me destroyed and/or egged; they're just trying to catch me off my guard.. 88. you go to your bf/gf's house for the first time and in his/her room, and everywhere is... you. what do you think? Um, you mean that they have pictures of me hung up everywhere, or they skinned parts of me and tacked the dried flesh to the walls? 89.what happens when you hear the word christmas? gifts for all of teh lurved ones!! I just need to think of those gifts... 90.does being a psycho sound appealing? some people would say that I'm already mildly insane, but they know nothing! they're the crazy ones!! 91.what food brings back good memories? the fettucini alfredo at Deluccas... *watery mouth* 92.do you talk to yourself? yes, but I never answer... *sadness* 93.sun or moon? the moon is prettier!! but not the full moon... *scared* 94.what's your opinion on love? i's sweeet and cute! and wuvvly!! 95.what's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? are there any? the last week before someone went to college *SMILIES* 96.would you rather go ballroom dancing or square dancing? I can't dance, but if I could, DEFINETLY ballroom dancing. As a matter of fact, I wish I could go to a ball.. wearing a pretty little Victorian dress.. 97.do you think you can afford to lose weight? YES, lots of it. 98.if you could dye your hair any colour, what would you dye it? I really want to dye it navy blue... *sadness* 99.what's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? that's private information *hits with a stick* 100.how was the survey? too long and too many inane questions *beats the writer with a big stick* Wednesday, November 19, 2003 09:31 p.m. HELP!!! OH GOD!! THE WORK HAS COLLAPSED ON ME!!! I CAN'T FEEL MY LEGS!! MY LEGS!!! MEEEEEEEEEEDIIIIIIIIC!!!! Tuesday, November 18, 2003 if you have a clock, use it I'm happy!! but I have nothing to talk about!! so I'm going to review some movies!! I'm in a good mood right now, even though the MASSIVE amounts of work I have to do are starting to lean on me, cutting off the circulation to my limbs.. Anyway, since Saturday, I've seen 3 movies, which I will review for your enjoyment. Jason and the Argonauts: I watched this late on Saturday night, the first time I had seen it since my childhood. The DVD transfer was.. nothing less than gorgeous. It looked like a new film, there was no blurrage or anything. But I'm getting ahead of myself. Basically, Jason, after growing up for 20 years, returns to the kingdome of Thessaly to reclaim the throne that was taken away from him shortly after his birth. Before he can overtake the conquering force in Thessaly though, he must go on a fantastical voyage to the edge of the world and take the Golden Fleece, battling all sorts of horrible monsters on the way, such as a massive bronze Golem, the dreaded winged harpies, the seven-headed Hydra, and an army of skeletons. First off, before I delve into my thoughts about it, THE HYDRA WAS SOOOOO CUUUUTE!!! And the Skeleton Army kicked much ass, as well. I cannot begin to describe how AWESOME this movie is, there aren't enough adjectives in the world to do that. One would think that the claymation would make it cheesy and unrealistic, but the work in this movie is comparable to something like Gollem in The Two Towers. Just like CG, one can easily tell the monsters in this are claymation and stop animation, but like the finest CG in films, it's integrated perfectly, and it's done so well that it doesn't come close to fracturing the intense amounts of fun to be had with this film. I specifically am reminded of 2 scenes: One is when the Hydra holds up one of Jason's enemies and strangles him to death with his tail. That scene is.. utterly flawless. It completely looks like a giant snake with a bunch of clay caked over it, and it's holding up a guy in an uncomfortably short tunic and killing him. The other scene is when a Skeleton Knight stabs one of Jason's comrades. The Skeleton first pins him against a pillar, and then it stabs him! Twice! Oh, it was intense *smilies*. Jason and the Argonauts is a classic of film, and I would hardly think that anything other than the best CG could top the effects today. 28 out of 5 Benjies. Masters of Tiger Crane: God, when I watch Kung-fu movies, I am NOT looking for comedy!! I want it to be unintentionally funny, sure, but not blatant and idiotic humour. MoTC is produced by the same company that released the FANTASTIC Martial Monks of Shaolin Temple, and because of the aformentioned success of Telefilms International, I truly expected Tiger Crane to be better. *Sigh* I was heavily dissapointed. The first 5 minutes are what I would expect from ANY true Kung-fu movie, Master #x is killed by some bizzare villain, then student #x vows to kill the murderers of Master #x. Problem is.. student #x is a COMPLETE idiot, and the villains are a flamboyant brother-sister pair WHO WEAR BUTTERFLY MASKS. So Li-Siu (the name of student #dumbass) sets out across China to find the villains, led only by the pearl necklace that the dying master stole from the Butterfly Duo and gave to him. Along the way, Li-Siu makes even more of a fool out of himself, and he continues to suffer from a terminal case of dumbassness, until a friendly drunkard teaches him THE TIGER CRANE(TM) and helps him fight the evil butterfly-obsessed villains. As I had stated before, I was extremely upset with this movie. Why do you ask, praytell? Because I DO NOT like physical comedy. For much of the movie, Li-Siu travels across the land and makes a fool out of himself, much to the 'amusement' of the audience. Granted I'm a picky lil' bug, but still, I did not like the antics of Li-Siu and the drunkard. 1 out of 5 Benjies for effort. Dagon: I cannot honestly say that I've seen the perfect HP Lovecraft movie. By far the best that I've seen was Reanimator, and it wasn't 'good,' but it was more entertaining than most movies that I see. Bride of Reanimator and Beyond Reanimator follow the same path, just not as good, with the latter being much more entertaining than the former, and the former just being really weird. Then there are movies like Mouth of Madness, which are not based on any Lovecraft story, but try to capture the mood of inescapable horror of any good Lovecraft work. Sadly, MoM did not, instead it seemed more like a Stephen King book trying to be Lovecraftian. Then there are movies like From Beyond, which cause Howie to SPIN IN HIS GRAVE. I believe that Dagon is much like Reanimator, just not anywhere near as entertaining (Jeffery Combs wasn't in it; go figure.) Dagon is both and accurate portrayal and a loose representation of The Shadow Over Innsmouth, as it follows some scenes flawlessly to the story, and yet some scenes are way off, and even the tiniest of plot details are changed (Innsmouth-Imboca? WTF??). Basically, Barbara and Paul(should have been Jeffery Combs... *SIGHS*) are 'celebrating' sucess in the stock market on their lil' boat when a storm hits and they're forced to go to the nearby fishing town of Imboca (*SIGHS some more*). Strange things are certainly afoot, and by nightfall, Barbara has been captured for Dagon's amusement and Paul is being pursued by the entire town, who are slowly changing so that they can go to the sea and enjoy immortal life with Dagon, their father. And oddly enough, in the end, Paul lives happily ever after, in a way that pleased me GREATLY *smilies*. This is a difficult thing to review, because I absolutely loved parts of it, whereas I detested other parts. I loved Shadow Over Innsmouth with a passion (it's one of my favourite of Lovecraft's fine, FINE works) and this movie passes in some ways, but dissapointed me in others. I'll start with one of the biggest hits and misses of the movie: Special Effects. the Makeup was... gorgeous. Simply Gorgeous. Really makes me want to be a son of Dagon. Problem is, if I was, my father would be a POORLY CG'd lump of pixels. I'll just say thank Dagon that MS Paint exists, because if it didn't, certain scenes might have went overboard on the budget. The acting was... meh. Everyone played their parts well and sometimes flawlessly (the motions of the Deep Ones were really impressive) but the problem is, PAUL WAS BAD. I did not buy his acting for a second, he either was overacting for some scenes, or HORRIBLY underacting for some *sigh*. Jeffery Combs, where the Hell were you?!?! I cannot say that the movie didn't have tension though, for many parts in the movie, I was edge-of-the-floor in excitement. In the climax, I even found myself vocally cheering for the happy ending, which I was once again, incredibly pleased with. One more thing that bugged me though: pointless nudity. Most people who will be reading this know that I'm squeamish, but it extends past the revulsion factor on that level. Howard Lovecraft was a man of the 20's. He probably would have been.. uncomfortable.. seeing some of the stuff in these movies. If you really feel the need to hear about the various situations in Lovecraft adaptations, ask away, but I'm not going to besmirch my blog with anything that vile. And this movie is no different. Granted it's.. tamer.. than Beyond Reanimator *cringes* but still, it's unnecessary. I dream of the day when Guillermo Del Toro creates At the Mountains of Madness; I KNOW he wouldn't screw with that piece of art. 3 out of 5 Benjies Now to review my day: THE PLAN TESTS WERE AWFUL. I HATE the feeling that I'm wasting my life, and low and behold, I had that feeling. FOR TWO AND A HALF HOURS. Still, I came home, certain people were really nice to talk to, and I finished watching Dagon, so all was good. A BIG thank you to a certain someone who cheered me up before the movie, and better than any movie ever could, EVER. 8 days isn't a long time at all, dearest *huggles*. Monday, November 17, 2003 bored AND lonely! Dagon smiles upon me *hopes* Yeh, I'm really sick of school. Like, SO sick of it. Not my classes or anything, but like, I'm sick of the repitition. Every day I do the same thing, over and over again; I think I'm getting cabin fever. It'd be nice if something different and good would happen.. 'Course, I don't want something different and bad to happen, and beggars can't be choosers, so there I go. I'm completely sick of painting *frowns*. I tried water-colours today, and I still get the same feeling from regular paintings, so that doesn't help. And I'm even worse at pencil works and other such stuff, so I have no clue what to do *sigh*. I really want to do a painting that has something to do with Guts, but I lack the talent for that. I could do a pretty good painting in my chibi-style, but that would be a waste of my time... *sigh*. It would also be nice if I woke up and was really good at something.. I'm kinda good at some things, but I don't have any strong talent.. And anyone reading this who's thinking, "OoOoh Benjy, practice makes perfect" doesn't know what they're talking about! I've been experimenting with all sorts of different stuff and I can't draw any better than I could in the 6th grade.. I can make things cuter, but not better *sigh*. I wish the Berserk mangas came out faster.. once every 3 months is, well, a long time to wait. I need to revitalize my desire to paint, and I need to do stuff differently at school. I'm not sick of my homelife in any way, but I'm just getting dumber and dumber at school by the minute... Who knows, mebbe I'll stoop to the chibi paintings and consequently wastes of my time. It'd be really neat to be a Deep One... I like swimming, and I like monsters, so it seems like a pretty cool way to do things. Note To Self: find Innsmouth (Maine?). Oh, and stop being so socially inept. Sunday, November 16, 2003 lonely.. painting!!! *spashies* I'm really lonely *frowns*. But that's beside the point. Yay for bad kung-fu movies!! Half-Price Books is my friend, I've found such wonderful things as "Blood of the Dragon," "Swordsman with an Umbrella," "36 Crazy Fists," "Martial Monks of Shaolin Temple," and the prize of them all, "Dr Wai the Scripture with No Words." The back description is ENTIRELY in Engrish *smilies*. Right now, I'm painting. I've realized that not only do I prefer working in school, but I also paint better... well, not AS bad.. anyway, I'm painting weird stuff, as usual. I like monsters *smilies*. And I continue to enjoy The Darkest of the Hillside Thickets, I lurves them! I do quote from The Innsmouth Look: "Obed was a sailor; he sailed the seven seas; he made love to the fish, he made love to the fishies." Before you start thinking I'm insane, go read "The Shadow Over Innsmouth" and you'll understand. I've read it, and I didn't vomit, so don't expect detailed accounts of Obed's "adventures" on the seas of the world. I'm really lonely right now *sadness* I'm really hoping I can make it through the next week and a half without breaking. It's been really grey in Pittsburgh for awhile.. I love rain and snow, but when it's just grey, I am a sad little thing. I need some company from people who are far away or just different people *frowns*. Still, I've finished my Lovecraft collection (except for that poetry collection *GRUMBLES*) so all is good!! I guess... I really need some company from those far-away people *sadness*. Saturday, November 15, 2003 tired... weekdays and some weekends so much to talk about, so little time... basically, I'll sum it up. Oddly enough, it IS true that when I get hurt, the first thing I do is check my hair... funny story, but my fingers want to go back to being immobile stands for a book, so no dice, as they say. I'm slowly rearing up on finishing my Lovecraft collection, all I need is The Dream Cycle of HP Lovecraft, and The Tomb and other stories. I have given up any hope of retaining the Complete Collection of HP Lovecraft's Poetry, as it is as elusive as the creatures that stare at me outside of my windows when my back is turned. Some people are fanboys and fangirls for musicians... I'm a fanboy to a deceased neurotic Victorian author *smilies*. In other news.. there is no other news. I'm just hoping that I don't die in the next 11 days, I would be extremely pissed at myself. Gah, so many tests... *DIES*. Wednesday, November 12, 2003 still grumpy *grimace* I couldn't think of a title that lacked in HEAVY swearing well, to make it blunt, I have a test in History... THE DAY BEFORE THANKSGIVING BREAK!!! *SCREEEEAAAACHES!!!* I'm SO POed about that... and that shaved-ape of a teacher has scheduled a speech for us that will take my Art away tomorrow... *grumbles* I'm angry at him. Art is my best class of the day, I don't need him taking it away from me so I can listen to a speech for 1 and a half hours. Granted, it will be a lawyer talking about dealing with China, but still, I like my Art class... *whinies!*. I'm rather interested in the speech, but My God, I don't want to miss my best class of the day because of it! and I just had such a good idea for a painting *sadness*. I borrowed a new book today, so for the time-being, I'm not COMPLETELY screwed in English.. yet.. and I got help with electron orbitals in the resource centre today, so I'm no longer really screwed in Chemistry, although the rest of the information is incredibly tedious and somewhat hard to understand. *SIGH* the less I worry about my other classes, the more I worry about History.. I mean My God, he scheduled a test on the day that I've been looking foreward to since about a week and a half or two weeks before Summer ended. Granted that I'm pretty sure that he didn't know this, but still, that's SO bad for me.. if I'm grumpy that night, I will go home and jump through a window, then bathe in salt. That will be getting close to the amount of pain that I should get for being grumpy on such an important night. Just.. BAH, SO upset about that *FROWNS!* Other than that unpleasant revelation, today was pretty good. I had 6 free mods today, and all of those were spent in Art, where I finished not only my Cat with Hands painting, but also a small painting of the Ogdru Jahad in their prison. "Ogdru Jahad" by The Darkest of the Hillside Thickets is an amazingly good song. Come to think of it, all the songs that I've heard of them are from good to amazingly good. I really like the songs, "Ogdru Jahad," "Colour me Green," "Walking on the Moon," "The Math Song," "Shoggoths Away," "Burrow Your Way to My Heart," and "Please God No." Not only is the music really good, but their lyrics are really wonderful, too *smilies* Once again, One can find their main site if one goes to the Cthuuuugle link, and click on the Music section. I need to find that Lovecraft poetry anthology.. I can't really describe their music, other than to point out that they like HP Lovecraft and mythology alot. And in case one wonders why I don't use paragraphs, it's because I don't know how, when I skip spaces, the final copy doesn't register that... *sigh*. Mebbe there's a code or something that I don't know, if anyone could tell me, it would be greatly appreciated.. Tuesday, November 11, 2003 still blehy this wasn't expected... *frowns* What Type of Villain are You? mutedfaith.com. Tuesday, November 11, 2003 grumpy.. *looks grizzled* yay for crappy days *mutters* Today was pretty awful. First off, it was a grey and gloomy day,and not the good kind of grey when everything has this slight bluish tint.. I had planned on waking up at 4:30, but I fell back asleep and woke up at Five, so I lost like an hour of study time for my Schlacter test *sigh* And I could have really used it, more on that later. So I go to school, and everything goes smoothly until 5-6, when I have Art. Ms. Luck was kind enough to let me go to the Resource center to study, and technically nothing went wrong with that. SO, what is the problem, you ask? I didn't have Art *sigh* that's my favourite class of the day, so I STILL haven't finished the Cat with Hands painting. Then I studied during 7-8, but I never go to Lunch, so there was no problem there. Then there was the test... hard as all Hell for me. And as I leave, I hear people say it was easy... *SIGH* I'm SO dead.. I feel like crawling under my randome mass of blankets on the floor and weeping until Thanksgiving. AND I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND MY MYTHOLOGY BOOK!!!! *SCREAMS!!* And the lab I had today was really confusing, and my group kept asking Doc Fro about it, so I probably ended up looking like an idiot... *Sighs s'more*. On top of all of that, we had our seating charts changed in Chemistry, so now I sit right in front of him, and it's kind of uncomfortable. I also don't like having an ENTIRE class of people who don't like me sitting behind me, as a matter of fact, I HATE IT. Originally I sat in the back, which was very comfortable for me, but now I'm going to feel like there are about 24 needles being flung into the back of my skull... *frowns*. So that sucked. But, after that, I went home with a friend, and there was much rejoicing. Lewis Black is one of the funniest men alive *smilies* he makes me want to be a cynical prick. So that was good, and I got to walk home in the rain, which was also much fun *smilies*. Unfortunately, when I got home, my mum yelled at me for walking home wearing black, and told me to do the dishes. And a very special person to me will unfortunately be out until later tonight, so I miss that person very much so *sadness*. So basically, today was ungood *frowns*. Don't hope that I did well on that test, you'll be wasting valuable thinking space. Hope instead that something wonderful happens, like the Ogdru Jahad comes back to Earth, and a new dominant species crawls from our ashes *smilies*. Remember, one can't spell Ogdru Jahad without.. um.. Jog? And to lighten myself up, a nice little quiz: You've decided it's better to be a pet than a snack. It's not so bad. Your Masters give you all sorts of fun mystical powers. Maybe now Mama will regret loving your brothers and sisters more. What H.P. Lovecraft Entity/Character Archetype Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Monday, November 10, 2003 *dies slowlier* hope that I live tomorrow! I'm really worried about this test... if I die tomorrow, make sure that my skull is separated from the rest of my body as a souvenir, and make sure that my funeral is very much fun.. *starts building my coffin* Monday, November 10, 2003 mildly disturbed... dying.. slowly.. alright, so yay for having a Schlacter test tomorrow which I will CERTAINLY screw up in one way or another *doomy*. And there's this crazy concept in Chemistry that I don't understand, it's like figuring out the electron orbitals in each element or something. SO.. basically this week will be filled with stressness *dies s'more*. My mythology book is definetly somewhere at home, because it is known by 'reliable' sources that I came home with it, so it's exact location is perplexing, indeed... *thinkies* I've looked everywhere, and I still haven't found it. Mebbe Riyo ate it... *worries*. Well, I'm a bit disturbed because of something that I overheard in school.. today was a pretty good day, until 15-16, when I have freemods. I traveled down to the resource center to complete my math homework for the night. As I worked, some person at the table group across from me started telling her friends about her hellish weekend. Basically, her boyfriend and her mother got into a fight in front of her about her.. the resolution was that they couldn't see eachother ever again, which made me really sad.. I feel really bad for them, it's so terrible, the mum was being mean.. I hope they can still be together.. *sigh*. I don't know, mebbe I'm being too emphatic, but still, that's so sad.. I really hope that they can still be together *sigh*. So that upset me. I drew a monster today. His name is King Augen. I like King Augen! *wigglies*. and my Cat with Hands painting is almost complete, I'll probably finish it tomorrow. 'Course, I said that on Friday, and on Thursday *sigh*. Still, it's a cute little thing *smilies* Sunday, November 9, 2003 panicking!! *dies* everything.. growing dark.. well, I'm having trouble finding my Mythology book for school... I've been looking for, like, 2 hours, and it hasn't come up. I've stooped to looking in weird places, like inside food cabinets and in the medicine drawer in the bathroom. I hope I didn't leave it in the Resource Center or something, 'cause someone might have stolen it then... I'm getting all panicky now *frowns*. On the bright side, a certain someone has introduced me to a band called The Darkest of the Hillside Thickets, and they're pretty fantastic. They have alot of nifty songs and song lyrics, and they're into Lovecraft, so I have to love them *smilies*. If you go to the Cthuugle link, and click on music, you'll find their website. They're really good, the vocalist has this nice average voice, it's soothing, yet fun and bouncy to listen to *wiggles*. I especially like The Math Song, although The Innsmouth Look is really good, too. Go buy their CDs so they become popular and eventually play in Pittsburgh *prods*. And while you're at it, go read some Lovecraft, so he can become even more popular after his untimely death. I wuvs the Lovecraft!! *wigglies!*. Sooner or later, I'll start to rant about Hampstercles, the Mighty! on here. Mebbe after enough ranting, I'll get some motivation and start to write it. Saturday, November 8, 2003 *thinks* what is this!? the third one in the same day!?!? I'ma still doing different little things, as of right now I'm trying to install an email adress in my Links column so I can get some comments.. I dearly love comments *smilies* today was terrible, and I might talk about it in a later entry, but my God, I've updated 3 times in 3 hours, I need to give this poor thing a rest *pats the Rabbitfodder* Saturday, November 8, 2003 energetic!! *wiggles* *shoves the second entry into the spotlight* I know it's only been about an hour, but I felt the need to point out that I have been greatly helped in making my blog pretty *thanks someone*. Feel free to look at the pictures of Howard Lovecraft and swoon! I like the one where he's wearing glasses *smilies*!! That is all. Saturday, November 8, 2003 sleepy.. A Clumsy Entrance Well, I have been wanting to start a blog for awhile, and so here I go. Because I am computer-illiterate, I have no idea how to change some stuff on here, such as those little links in the corner. Mebbe if someone is charitable and has a mountain of patience, they can guide me through this. Anyway, so here I am!! *wigglies* I'm thinking about a number of different things I could do with this little blog, such as make it a movie review website, or mebbe a chapter of a story every once and awhile. I've grown weary of Marc and Cleo, so maybe I'll start with Hampstercles, the Mighty!! *shrug* so many options.. kinda..